Hey loves, you havent heard from me in awhile. But as you all faithful e/o shippers know this fandom is addicting. I got so caught up in my new fandom the twilight saga, I forgot to update. But that didnt keep me from writing this. I hope you do all enjoy my new style of writing those of you who will still read this although I have bailed on you twice already. And sadly no, I am not continuing my old stories. And I am deeply sorry, those of you who haven't stopped reading. This is my new story which I might make multiple chapters for.


This was the day I was dreading for months. As my shaking hands yanked the door open, there he stood, the grim reaper, the angel of death. In my red rimmed eyes.

Im so sorry miss. Benson, so deeply sorry.
All I heard was
Youre alone.

Four neighbors came over to see if I was okay. I didnt answer the door, but I got the hint. I put the pillow over my face and screamed because I was alone.

They called I didnt answer, even Kathy called I answered but I couldnt say anything Im sorry, stuck in my throat. I guess it was for the better though she would of only thought I was sorry for myself, I hung up.

Munch came by later, you look like hell was all he said. Im in hell was my reply. He didnt say much more because he knew in my eyes, I was.

Casey came by that night or day, the shades hadnt been opened. What day is it Casey, my voice was butchered but coherent. Saturday, its been a week Liv.

Itll last my lifetime.
She shook her head but didnt try and sway my words she knew they were set in stone.
She brought Chinese, I cried. He always brought Chinese. She got the hint and tossed it. I saved the egg rolls, he loved them. We ate TV dinners and cried in silence.

As I slept, he was there
Its just a dream Liv you'll wake up soon
And when I did I realized he was really, really gone. Elliots gone, youre alone
No one heard me but myself, but anyone with eyes already knew.

-aka sammie and sammieisback

Welcome back! I'm a new member. Nice to have u back.
Becky aka elliotnolivia4ever

oooo I really like this. Please write more!

please add more. this sounds soooo good. (:

Wow !!
Great !
Please update I'd like to knbow what happened...

Yea SAMMIE your back!!
That was great update soon

I see an update♥
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You said,
Tell me, write a journal.

Ill think about it, I say. I lied.

He isnt everything.
You say
Yes he is, I say.
You give me this look like Im insane; Im tempted to tell you he stole my brain.

He was beautiful.

He was everything.

He was there when I lost myself in the tears, the pain. Now Im drowning and hes searching for the soul that he doesnt know he stole.

Where is your heart now? You ask.

In his hands, I say.

Do you pray?

Everyday.

Do you feel alone? Your voice is calm mine, is tired.

I am.

I shiver and I hear his voice, Im here Liv.
Are you cold? You ask.

I will never be warm again, I say.

Silently a tear slips down my cheek and I picture his smile and I dont shiver but Im still cold to the bone.


Im just laying there, Im afraid of what it says , more afraid of how it got there.

There is a note on my pillow.

Dont be sad, it says.

The words haunt me; I tell you. Tears spilling down the red plains, of what some would call cheeks.

Why, you say.

Because I know he wrote them.

I shiver as I say this, because I know this is the truest thing I have ever said to anyone.

And I realize the last string has been cut and I know he knows I feel betrayed.
I scream, I kick, I cry and you listen, and inside I know, he knows I feel guilty.
I know, he knows, Im scared.
I know, he knows, I finally admitted that he lied, that he left,

that he died.

Great update!!!

OW MY GOSH THAT WAS GOOD!
OUT YOUR BUTT BACK HERE AND UPDATE!!

post more soon new reader love it

You gotta post an update soon! This is deep stuff~ I'm hooked. I want to read more! <3

Sorry about the long wait, busy. Comment and I will update soon, I promise.
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“He has beautiful eyes, sky blue.” I set the picture down on the table. You’re quiet, so I talk. “Elliot had beautiful eyes, just like that.” I smile, his name makes me smile. His name always made me smile. “Do you miss Elliot?” His name sounds odd falling from your lips, but I answer. “All the time.” I frown, so true. “Now how long were you two together?” I smile widely, I can tell you just wrote ‘she smiled, it finally touched her eyes.’ I can’t help but laugh, “8 years, we defied all odds.” Your eyebrows come together, being confused doesn’t suit you. “What odds, did your family not think you could be together?” I cough, “wait, you think we were dating?” you look confused again. “Well yes.” I laugh so hard tears touch my eyes, “no, we were partners.” Again, you look confused, what’s wrong with you today did captain not fill you in on the details? “Wait, you’re a cop?” I smile “Special Victims Detective Olivia Benson for the past 8 years, Elliot Stabler was my partner,” I swallow hard “gun down on the job.” I sob out “he was my only family.” Before the tears become too much and I’m done for the day.
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“Hey Liv.” The beer is coughed out of my mouth. “I’m sorry,” I mumble. “I,” you frown. “No one has called you that since E-,” I ramble quickly cutting you off. “So what’s everybody doing here?” Munch, Fin, Lake and Captain are looking at me and you’re frowning. “What?” I ask. “You okay, Olivia?” It’s Munch. “Yeah, I’m okay.”
But I’m not.

love it post more soon

omg i luuuuv this poooor livvy:'(

Will post soon sorry, my next chapter is on the computer that isnt working right now. =[ I'll see if I can get to it today.