I DVR JaG every day and can't wait to come home from work to watch it. I have seen the episode titled "family secrets" in which the Roberts' family losses baby number 2 Sarah Roberts. I to lost a child. I had seen the episode many times before i lost my son Jackson. I lost my son who was a twin at 32 weeks, but delivered his twin sister Taylor in march of 2007. so it was last summer i think that i saw this episode for the first time from an entirely different perspective.

Unlike the show i didn't know why my son died so never had the opportunity to attempt to put the blame on someone. I just blamed myself for the first year. I still cry when i see the episode. . . it just bring back so many emotions of holding our child, wanting to blame someone, what to do, the sleepless nights, thoughts going through your head should i or could i have done something different. This episode means so much to me for some reason, i think because they address such great issues. . . real issues on the television. i guess with actors from a show that i just adore.

are there others out there in my same situation or touched by the episode as much as i was. love to hear from someone

Aww, I'm so sorry to hear about your loss.

I'm 16 so I obviously haven't had a child, but I can kinda watch the show from my mother's perspective.

She suffered from endometriosis [like Mac] and had a difficult time trying to get pregnant. After 10 years of trying [and multiple miscarriages], my mom finally became pregnant with me and my 2 sisters [I'm a triplet.] But what I didn't learn until recently was she was actually pregnant with quadruplets and lost one at 5 weeks. So yeah, watching this episode is a little tough for me because it makes me think about my lost sibling.

It is always incredibly sad when a baby dies. I am very sorry to read both of your stories. Life is a precious thing. I remember being extremely touched and upset by "The Princess and the Petty Officer" when baby Sarah does not survive birth and again with "Family Secrets" when the obstetrician was not found negligent. The doctor was a short-timer in the Navy, bragging about his new private practice, and was out test driving a Porsche instead of tending to Harriet and the baby. He seemed aggravated to be bothered with them during that important time in his life. I really did not expect the ending.

Sorry to hear about your loss.

So sorry for the losses you have experienced. I have the episode on DVR and am on vacation, so I have not yet seen it. When I do I will think of you, and pray for peace for you. I have a 2yr old, and can only try to imagine your feelings. I find that I get deeply emotionally involved in shows and can almost feel the character's pain... I know it must be hard when you can relate as well. Hang in there!