Hi!

Here is the first part of my sequel to motherhood feelings...

Hope you'll enjoy it, please review!

Aliecia, thanks for your support, I hope you'll like this!

N/A : Of course I own nothing...the thoughts of the character are in italic..

New life, new loves
PART 1

Elliot had not seen Olivia since days. He had only talked to her on phone for few minutes. He was busy with a new case, too much suspects, too much possibilities, and for her part, she was studying new positions and managing with her new life as a mother.

He missed her

She missed him

They were too busy, but always thought of each other. When drinking a coffee he asked himself if she was drinking her tea at the same time. When eating with Mathew she thought of Elliot who maybe hadn’t lunch for a long time.

She was sitting on her couch, reading suggestions, Mathew was slipping. She wanted to call him but feared to call at a wrong moment. She wanted to ask him to come to visit her when he would have time, but…

He was sitting on the corner of his desk watching at the white board, hoping the solution would appear under his eyes soon. He thought it would be easier if she would still be at his side. He wanted to call her to ask if he could come to visit her tonight after work but…

No…Leave her alone, he thought. She has a lot of things to do and if she wanted to see you she would have called you. Yes, but you are the one who is busy with work. Maybe she doesn’t dare to disturb you at work. Maybe she just doesn’t dare to call you. Maybe…maybe…oh crap Stabler, be a man, call her! She hadn’t given any news from a long time and she promised I won’t lose her…let’s see if you can trust her!

He grabbed his phone and went to the crib not to be disturbed.

Dial

Ring

Ring again

3^rd ring…

Maybe she’s busy…

Liv: Hi El! What’s up?

El: Hi! Well…I was just wondering if everything was ok… crap…be a man, don’t act like a teenager, ask her!

Liv: Yeah…I’m fine, so is Mathew. I’m studying vacancies by this time.

El: Anything interesting?

Liv: Yes, do you want me to talk about it now?

El: ..mmmhh…well, actually I thought, I wondered, if you are not too busy…or…if you don’t mind…

Liv: Come after work, El.

El laughed lightly: Not my partner anymore but still read my mind…

Liv: See you tonight so? Just give me a phone call when you leave the precinct, ok?

El: ok…bye honey.

He hung up.

God…did I just call her honey?

God…did he just call me honey?

Here is the next, chapter, R&R, please!

PRECINCT, 7pm.



Elliot was still sitting at his desk. He had read all papers spread everywhere on his desk but couldn’t find anything interesting. No clue, no evident sign, nothing… The fact was that it was difficult to stay focused on the goal when thinking of Olivia. He would see her tonight, at hers…he wanted to see her so much, he missed her not only as a partner but as a friend, as…just as Olivia. The detective Olivia, the friend Olivia, the stubborn Olivia, the strong Olivia, the compassionate Olivia, the woman Olivia…with her chocolate eyes, her skin…might be so soft, her way to look at me, the way she holds me a cup of coffee, the way she can calm me down or be angry against me, she does not fear me, she protects me….stop! stop it Stabler! You’re slipping and may think too far… skip your thoughts and stay focused….

Cragen: Elliot!

Elliot: Yeah, Cap?

Cragen: How many times do I have to repeat my question?

Elliot: Sorry Sir, I’m seeking for some clue in this huge amount of papers, and nothing yet…I assume I should…

Cragen: …go home and come back tomorrow with refresh mind. You’d be more efficient

Elliot: ok Sir, see you tomorrow.

He ordered rapidly his papers on his desk, went to his locker, took new clothes and made his way to the bathroom of the station.

He hurried in shower and then grabbed all his stuff. He walked to the parking to open the sedan and called Liv.

Elliot: Hey, Liv, I’m on my way, do you want me to bring something to eat?

He stopped walking, speechless in the middle of the parking

Elliot: No, you’re kidding, aren’t you? Can’t wait to see that! Ok, then so I come. Are you sure you don’t need anything? Ok! See you in few minutes!

He hung up and smiled.

A woman full of surprises too…



OLIVIA’S FLAT



Knocks on the door…

Olivia: Who’s this?

Elliot: Liv, it’s me!

She opened the door. Elliot stood there, his hands behind his back.

Elliot: One of your neighbours recognized me and let me in.

He followed her inside her flat. He smelt good things from the kitchen but could not guess what she cooked.

Elliot: So…how was your day?

Olivia turned to him with a glass of wine. She smiled at him.

Olivia: Good! Want a glass of wine or are you on duty tonight?

Elliot had still his hands behind his back.

Elliot: I’d like to, but I can’t, my hands are already used.

Olivia: What for?

He held her flowers.

Elliot: For you.

Olivia blushed and put the glass on the corner.

Olivia: El, wow…they are beautiful! Why?

She went to him and took the flowers.

Elliot: Well…I don’t know…We hadn’t seen each other since you left and…

She put them in water and arranged everything on the corner to emphasize them. The only thing that caught the eyes was the flowers on the corner. She looked at them.

Olivia: Really Elliot, they are beautiful, I love them. Thank you so much.

Elliot: I assume Mathew is sleeping?

Olivia: Yes, we wandered a lot in the park today and he was really tired.

Elliot: Can I just see him? I’d like to see the big boy I think he became.

Olivia laughed: Yes, in few days he changed a lot.

She guided him to her bedroom. She opened the door slightly and he saw Mathew sleeping peacefully. He smiled and exited the room.

Olivia: He’s begun to speak.

Elliot: Really?

Olivia: Yes! He makes people understand what he wants. He improves himself day after day.

Elliot: That proves he feels secure with you.

Olivia: I hope! I just fear the day I’ll have to work again. I hope he won’t believe I leave him.

Elliot smirked: Is that you really fear this or…are you afraid to leave him and not spend a full day with him?

Olivia smiled: Both, I think! You know El, I already understood the fear you could have for you kids. The fact that when catching up a suspect you think of your kids. But now, I have another view and I do know the fear you have. I have the same now.

Elliot: And this won’t ever disappear.

Olivia: I know.

Elliot: So you said you’d cook for us tonight…explanations?

Olivia: Yes, I wanted to cook for my son because I want to feed him with natural products…

Elliot: If Munch heard this he would love it!

Olivia: and so I re opened my old cooking books, and tried some things.

Elliot: Tonight is a new try?

Olivia laughed: Are you afraid I may poison you?

Elliot smiled again: No! Not at all…

Olivia: You’re such a bad liar, Elliot!

Elliot: I’m kidding…I’m glad to taste what you cooked.

Olivia: Good! So come on, it’s ready!

Elliot: What did you cook?

Olivia: Chicken with cream, nature vegetables and mashed potatoes, everything cut, sliced and home prepared!

Elliot: God! I’m impressed!

Olivia: Don’t speak too fast, taste it first!

She brought the meal on the table.

Olivia: As the French say. “Bon Appetit”!

TBC ? or not

They sat and began to eat silently.
After few minutes Olivia could not resist:
Liv: El, what's wrong?
El: Nothing, I'm fine. It's really delicious, Liv!
Liv: Thanks but don't avoid the subject, I know you, El, I know there is something wrong. What's it?
El sighed , took a sip of wine and looked Olivia straight.
El: It's a case, but I don't want to bother you with it.
Liv: Bother me? El, we have worked together for nearly 10 years....
El: Yeah...that's too.
Liv: What?
He stood up and went to the window.
She follwed him and stayed behind him.
Liv: El, please talk to me.
El: I miss you...I can't handle a case, I don't understand what I have to find....I lost control and...
He bit his lip
She moved toward him and put her hands on his shoulders. He turned and hug her. He repeated against her neck:
El: I miss you, Olivia, really, I miss you so much.
She embraced him and put her hand on his head.
Liv: I miss you too,El. I'm happy being a mother, having Mathew in my life but I miss you too.
They pulled apart and locked their gaze. He put his hand on her cheek and caressed it with his thumb.
El: Liv,...
Liv: Yeah, tell me El...Tell how I can help you.
El: He went to the table to drink a few wine.
El: I have a perfect family, no evidence of something wrong, but the point is that the oldest daughter was raped. No fluid, bruises on legs, marks of links on wrists...but any f****** clue. It seems that everybody has everybody's back, in the family, in close friends, at school....I don't know how to help her, it is as if the world was against her. I know there is something not clear with this family. But...God I can't find anything!

Liv: And the labs?

El: Nothing really helpful... I have a wrong feeling about this family...

Liv: What kind?

El: I feel as if we are...

Liv: What?

El: Liv...It is as if our team was in danger....It's weird, I can't explain that but...

Liv: Did you talk to Cragen?

El: No...he would ask me to go home and take some rest...

Liv: It may be a good thing...

El: No...It won't. I need to work or I'll be crazy soon.

Liv: Ok then...ask Huang, maybe he will find what's wrong and help you with a new clue.
El: Mmh...I'll think of it.

Liv: Yes you should. Tomorrow I'll have lunch with Melinda. do you want to join us?
El: No, thanks. I know she'll be happy to share a moment with you and Mathew.
Liv: Ok..

They talked again a few about the case and Elliot began to relax by her side. He was feeling comfortable with her and she loved being with him at hers, with nothing more than them talking, glasses of wine and soft music.
He left at midnight, apologizing for being so talkative, which made her laugh...Stabler is not really a talkative guy.

The day after Melinda, Olivia and Mathew were sitting in a restaurant. Olivia was feeding Mathew as Melinda was explaining her version of the case. They talked about the case and new life of Olivia, the job suggestions she received and Melinda asked her:
Mel: And for Elliot?
Liv: What?
Mel: How do you manage?
Liv: Manage what?
Mel: You know what I mean, Liv, C'mon!
Liv: No I don't!
Mel: Ok, you want clear words! You both used to work together all day long, you don't see him a lot anymore, so does he, he misses you, you miss him....he left Kathy last week....
Liv: WHAT???
Mel: He didn't tell you?
Liv: No! I saw him yesterday and he never mentionned that point!
Mel: Ooops! I said something I shouldn't have, she added with a grin on her face.
Liv: What happened?
Mel: You have to ask if if you want to know. I already said too much.
Liv: Mel!
Mel: I have to go, or I'll be late. Come with me, you may see him at the precinct and I'm sure guys will be happy to see you!
Liv: Ok, I follow you!
Mel: Good girl!

TBC...?

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Melinda and Olivia paid their bill and exited the restaurant. Olivia went to her car and sat Mathew in his seat, fastened the belt and sat at the driver seat. She started the car but her thoughts went to what Melinda said.

"he left Kathy last week"

Oh My God...Oh My God....Oh My God....why didn't he tell me? I have to know. I have to make the situation clear. I have to know what his feelings are for me...no wait Benson, first, he just left his wife, secondly he's your partner....well not. But he used to be. And your best friend too. That's all. THAT'S ALL!!! So why are you going to ask him why he left? No...no you won't ask him this, you will only ask him why he did not tell you...that's better...never show him your feelings, NEVER !!! Which feelings Benson? He's your best friend...he's your best friend...and best friends never become lovers or it will destroy everything....yeah that's better to think that....so why do you still have butterflies in your stomach, Benson? C'mon, act as a big girl, as a mother, your only interest is Mathew now, and your new jpob, and that's easier...so simple....my son needs me, I have to focuse on that...my son needs me.....

Oh MY GOD !!!!...Olivia shouted....

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Olivia heard a big sound of an explosion. Her car was blown on the side. Panicked people invaded the pavements. Everyone ran into a panic in many different directions.
She was shocked and turned towards Mathew who was sleeping peacefully. From her seat she caught her son, took her bag and left the car. She stopped a woman who passed and asked her:
"What happened? "
She answered : "An explosion at the police station!" and ran .
Olivia felt its stomach to be turned over and she made a path through the crowd. She saw Melinda by far and tried to join her. When she could finally approach, she asked her:
"How are you ? Have you been hurt? Where did the explosion take place?" But Melinda did not dare to answer, she looked Olivia in the eyes. Olivia understood.
"No… no...this is not possible."
She felt her knees bending.
Melinda: "Liv… "
Olivia looked Melinda straight in the eyes
Liv: "No, it can't happen, I won't let it happen. I can't lose him. Keep Mathew, if in any case he awakes, give him his bear and tell him that I left to seek another one and that I come back asap or he will panic."
Avoiding waiting for the answer of Melinda she put Mathew in her arms and ran as quickly as crowd made it possible.
After few minutes of a battle against the crowd, she reached the steps of the station. She felt as if she had rowed against a river and as she looked up to the offices where she used to work she saw...well nothing. Windows had disappeared, and fire was on the whole flour. She feared she would vomit but she focused only on the fact she would not allow herself to collapse without seeing Elliot.
She hurried into the buillding and ran upstairs. Without thinking of anything else she opened a door and shouted "Elliot". She was wrapped by hard dark smoke and she couldn't almost breathe.
She made her way to her former squad, always shouting "Elliot". She could not stop but shouting his name, she did not hear not even see other detectives. She was just looking for her love and nothing else mattered. "Elliot, can you hear me?" She saw Munch with bleeding temple.
Liv: Oh God, Munch! Go outside right now! Can you walk?
Munch: Yes, I can, Liv, it's just that...
Liv: Munch, I guess someone called 911 so go out now!
Munch was completely lost and another policeman came and helped him to walk.
Policeman: I'll take care of him, Benson! Are you hurt?
Liv: No, I heard the explosion and came here...did you see Elliot?
Policeman: No, sorry... I don't know...
Liv: It's ok, no problem, please take care of John, ok?
She walked further and shouted again "Elliot"
The smoke became stronger but as stubborn as she is she did not want to return.
She shouted once more "Elliot!"
She felt someone grabb her arm.
"What are you doing here?
Liv: El...oh my God!"
She put a hand on her mouth and began to cry.
Liv: Oh my God I was so scared!
El: Liv! What are you doing here? Are you hurt? Where is Mathew?
Liv: He's fine, he's safe with Melinda outside. I heard the explosion and...." she could not end her sentence. She bit her lip.
El: Did you come here to find me? That's it, Liv? You entered a building in fire to look for me?
Liv: ...
El: Liv! " He could not believe she did such a thing. It was so dangerous, so meaningless, so stupid, so....so...
Liv: We have to go out, Elliot, we are in danger here.
She was going to exit the hall but he grabbed her arm and pulled her back. He crashed his lips on hers, and put his arms around her to hold her as closer as possible. She did not understand what was happening but when she realized he was kissing her she relaxed. They deepened the kiss and for a litlle moment time was suspended. There was no more smoke, no fire, no one else, no...
"Hey! It's no the right time!"
They broke the kiss and realized they were surrounded by firemen. They did not hear any siren, not even firemen spreading in the whole flour.
El: Sorry, sir...we go out now.
Fireman: Yes you do! This way please! I assume you did not see anybody else here?...Yeah! Of course! Out!
They both landed and El took Liv's hand and they ran downstairs.
They exited the building and Liv made her way to Melinda, followed by Elliot.

*crying uncontrallably!* OMG!!!!! YOU HAD ME AT THE EDGE OF MY SWIRLY CHAIR!! (which I almost fell off of! LOL!) I was crying like there was no end thinking that Elliot was dead!! And my mom thought I had hurt myself or something! LOL!!! But--- WOW!!! WHAT A CHAPTER!!!!!!!! I it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Olivia and Elliot reached Melinda and Olivia took her son in her arms.
Mel: Elliot! How are you? What happened?
El: I'm fine thanks, but I don't know what happened, I was with O'Halloran checking on some points when I heard the explosion. It came from our squad. I ran there to see and found Fin running down the hallway too. I did not see Munch or Cragen, I hope they are fine.. I wonder how many colleagues have been hurt...
Liv: I saw Munch, he's hurt but someone helped him to exit. A new colleague I guess, never saw him before.
El: Liv, you should go home now, it's not a good place for Mathew and the less we are here, the better the firemen would work.
Liv: Yeah, I know, I'm worried about Cragen, and...
El: I call you as soon as I have sone news, ok?
Liv smiled at him: ok, please call me, she said in a low voice.
Elliot understood. He smiled at her and looked at her full of love: I promise.
Liv: Mel, you should go too.
Mel: Yeah, and I'm sure this news will be spread everywhere and I bet my daughter will look after me. I go. El,...n
El: Sure, I keep you informed.
Mel: Thanks.

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Olivia had been at home since few hours now. She had fed Mathew, bathed him and was nearly to led him to bed as her cell phone rang.
The ID showed "El". She smiled but felt her heart beat a lot and hands turned to moister.
Liv: El, what's up?
El: The firemen finally had the fire and all the remains will be cleared soon. We'll have to find new offices for few weeks.
Liv: and Cragen?
El: He's fine, fortunately he was talking with Huang further when the bomb exploded.

Liv: The bomb? It's sure?

El: Yes...Evidences of a bomb were found...

Liv: Who was the target?
El: ...Apparently I was...
Liv: Oh my God! El....
El: It's ok, Liv, I'm ok....I'm just....
Elliot sighed heavily
El: Liv...Carson died in the explosion, and 3 others are strongly injured at hospital....I was the target and I'm fine...
Liv: Don't fell guilty El, you know this kind of thing can always happen, as cops we know it..
El: Yes, we know but it is different when it happens...
Liv: Do you want to come here ?
El: I don't know, Liv....I'd like to, but....
Liv: Just come El, you need to talk....we need to talk but first, you need to talk about today, and...just come and sit here, take a drink...please El, come. She paused. I need you by my side.
El: Ok, let me change and I'll be at yours within one hour I think, ok?
Liv: 'k..

... TBC ??? ....


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Elliot arrived few minutes later and knocked on the door. Olivia opened it and they looked each other in the eyes for a moment.

El: How are you doing?

Liv: I’m fine…

He followed her inside of her flat. She turned to him and said:

Liv: El,….I don’t know what happened in the precinct, but….

El: Do you regret?

Liv sighed.

Liv: El, …it’s just that….

El came closer and looked at her straight in the eyes….

El: Olivia Benson, are you telling me you did not feel anything when we kissed? Are you telling me you have so feelings for me? Are you telling me what I saw in your eyes was just fear to lose a friend? Are you telling me you let your son to Melinda and entered a building in fire just to make sure your FORMER partner was well?

She could not answer.

El: So, tell me….

She was still looking in his eyes, she could not make a move.

El let his hand on her cheek and stroked her lips with his thumb. She closed her eyes, trying to control the fire she felt inside. She felt his lips on hers and after few seconds of hesitation she let him kiss her and they deepened the kiss. He held her close in his arms and she put her arms around his neck, their bodies against each other. He wrapped his arms around her waist and held her so tight so that she could not escape. They were enjoying a passionate kiss and nothing could disturb them. The building could have been destroyed under their feet they would not have heard a noise. Finally they broke the kiss and they looked at each other, smiling. She let her forehead on his, opened her mouth to speak but said nothing. She smiled.

El: What ?

Liv bit her lip and looked at him: El, ….I love you.

He smiled at her and kissed her gently on her lips.

El: Liv I love you too.

He kissed her

El: I love you and I want to be with you now not as a friend, not as a former partner, I want to be with you….

Liv: Me too.

She kissed him.

Liv: I love you so much Elliot….Can’t believe this is happening! Ouch ! El !

El: What ! You said you did not believe, I wanted you to realise this is all real.

Liv: That’s what you gripped me ?

El laughed : sorry…. He leaned his head to kiss her, but she bit his lip and they together laughed. They kissed again but this time the kiss led to touching and slowly he let her hands under her top and began to stroke her. Her skin was so soft… he could not stop but touch her. He wanted to know each part of her body. She moaned under his touching and began to unbutton his skirt. They slowly, softly, tenderly took their clothes off and made their way to her bedroom where he laid her on the bed. They made love to each other as if nothing else mattered. They had finally admitted their feelings, they finally had the right to confess, they finally had the right to kiss, they finally had the right to be lovers, and they didn’t want to let the chance pass by. Their skins were burning by feeling the touch of each other and as they together came to heaven they were interlacing their fingers, as a proof to each other of their love, as if they wanted to share everything until the end, as if they were only one. They kissed again and felt into sleep in each other arms.





By the morning Olivia awaked by Mathew who was calling her. He was jumping in his bed, his little hands were holding the bed and he jumped with saying as he could : “Mum mum mum mum mum mum….”

Olivia smiled as she heard him and turned to El who was still sleeping. She kissed on the cheek and got up to take her son.

Liv: Awwh…big boy….are you hungry? Some come with me Mummy will prepare you breakfast….

She took her son in her arms and went to the kitchen. With Mathew on her left arm she grabbed the baby cup and poured milk in it.

El: Hi!

Olivia was surprised, she turned to Elliot.

Liv: Did we wake you?

El: No, I felt I was alone in bed…

Liv: Sorry…Mathew called me for breakfast.

Elliot came closer and kissed her on the lips.

El: It’s ok, I understand. Hey you, little boy! How are you?

Liv: Well, I’m hungry, so nothing else matters than my breakfast….

Elliot laughed.

El: Yeah, you are right little man, breakfast first! Liv, do you want me to cook breakfast for us?

Olivia looked at him in the eyes, she smiled at him.

Liv: Yes, please.

They smiled at each other and El began to open the fridge to grab some eggs while Olivia sat her son in his chair. She smiled to herself. How strangely life can change. How life can turn into a happy way. How she was happy now. She had now a life as a mother, as a woman who belongs to the love of her life. She could never be happier. She had a new life, she had new loves.



THE END…