QUOTE (monkchik693 @ Jun 28 2008, 10:51 PM)

Sorry, if I'm ruining any lighthearted conversation. I just need people to listen. You don't have to give me any advice, I simply just need someone to cheer me up.
Well, my dad and I, we don't get along. Why? I'm annoyed by him. Very annoyed.
My mom and dad were having a conversation, as soon as they were done saying what they needed to say, I said my opinion. No one acknowledged it. They just kept talking with eachother so I mumbeled to myself "Fine, nobody has to listen to me." My dad said in a very stressed out tone. "Oh, I'm sorry, I guess we're not allowed to have a conversation unless it revolves around Jenny." So, I said "Fine, I won't talk then." And mum snaps at me for being rude to my dad.
And that's what happened. And it's not the first time something like this has happened. My dad can talk smack about me, right to my face and mum hears him and still does nothing. I talk smack about him behind his back and mum scolds me that I shouldn't be so disrespectful. Yet, I didn't say anything rude to his face. And she still takes his side. She ALWAYS takes his side. The only time she takes my side is if I end up in tears. (Which is very rare unless it's THAT time of month.) Then she tells my dad to apologize, which is pointless, because I know he'll be mean again anyway.
To understand how truly depressed this makes me feel, you have to know my dad. I'm fifteen. My dad is 52, and I am more mature than he is. Ask anyone who knows my dad, they'll agree. (Except my mum, never ask her cause she'll just take his side.) How's this? He yells. At everything and everyone. At little things that aren't even bothering anyone else. He yells at me, mum, grandma, cousins, aunts, uncles, friends, salesclerks, waiters, random people we don't even know. And if there's no one else around to yell at, he'll gladly yell at himself. (the sad thing is, I'm not kidding either. Me and mum have come home and heard him screaming at who? His own reflection.) And yet, when I get just a teeny bit grumpy, he still has the nerve to say I'm the one with the attitude probelem.
The only person who notices how upset it makes me is my grandma, and she's not always around. I've even told my pastor that my dad scares me because he yells all the time. His advice? "Don't take it personally, your dad loves you." Yeah, the same advice I've heard from nearly every other person in the world who hasn't seen what a jerk my dad can be.
I'm not going to say that I'm abused, because I'm not. I know I have it a lot better than some kids. Just it makes me feel so sad and unloved.
Like I said, I don't want any advice, I just want to be cheered up. Please. You guys are the only ones who can do it right now.
Sorry...
Chik/Jenny
I hate it when parents think what their kids say doesn't matter. Just because you are 15 doesn't mean you don't have a voice. From what I can tell here on the board you are a VERY mature 15. Your dad should be giving you more consideration. But I remember feeling that way too at your age. The whole "you are only 15 what do you know?" thing. I always hated that. Just remember WE want to hear what you have to say so you can always come here and talk all you want!