Fracture
by AmandaB
Summary: Families cause tension just as Goren and Eames encounter an old enemy. A sequel to All the Way, set seven months after that story (a month after Purgatory). This is the third and final story in my Bobby/Carolyn trilogy. Reading Past is Present is highly recommended, or you will have little idea about what is going on. Comments/suggestions are always appreciated. This story has a T (PG-13) rating.
Disclaimer: Law and Order Criminal Intent belongs to Dick Wolf and USA, not me.
A/N: To give credit where's it's due, this story was partly inspired by the USA Criminal Intent board. Thanks, everyone.
Chapter One: Unexpected Visitor
Waiting on the couch for Bobby, Carolyn looked up in surprise when the doorbell rang. She had arrived in New York early, and had let herself in with the key that Bobby had given her a few weeks ago. Coming over, Carolyn partially opened the door to find a young man standing on the front steps.
"Oh. I wanted to talk to Bobby. Who are you?"
"I could ask you the same thing. I'm his girlfriend Carolyn. Bobby should be home from work in a few minutes."
"All right. I'm Donny, his nephew."
"Frank's son?"
"Um, yeah." He glanced around. "Do you mind if I come in?"
"I suppose so." Donny nodded, and sat down on the couch. This close, Carolyn could smell alcohol on him. After a long moment of silence, Donny turned to her.
"So how long have you and Bobby been going out?"
"Six months."
"He hasn't mentioned you to me, or said anything about Tates?"
"No. I don't know anything about Frank other then the fact they don't get along."
Donny laughed briefly. "That's the understatement of the year. I barely know my dad myself."
"So then you've been living with your mom? What brings you to Bobby's door?"
"I- don't take this the wrong way, but that's between me and Bobby."
Carolyn got up. "You're right. I obviously have no place in family business. Take as long as you need." Grabbing her bag and putting on her coat, she got to the door and closed it, aware that Donny had gotten up, but uncaring. Getting out her cell, she phoned for a taxi.
Carolyn was about to get into the taxi five minutes later when she saw Eames's car pull up. Bobby got out, and Carolyn leaned forward.
"Just give me a few minutes here." she told the driver, then closed the door and turned to a surprised Goren.
"Your nephew is inside. When you're done talking, perhaps you could tell me why you neglected to mention his existence." she snapped.
His eyes widened. "Donny's here? I've been trying to find him for months. How is he?"
"So all those times you said you couldn't see me because you were busy with a case, you were really searching for your nephew? You told me you needed some space, and so I left you alone. But you've barely been in touch for three months, and now you come crawling back to me once you have your job back? Alex told me you'd returned. Bobby, you have to decide whether this is a relationship or not."
"Carolyn, you know our relationship is important to me. I wasn't always looking for Donny..." Carolyn didn't let him finish.
"You know what, I've had a long week and I don't want to deal with your self imposed isolation right now."
Carolyn moved to get into the taxi, but was stopped by Bobby's hand on her arm.
"Carolyn, don't-"
She whirled on him. "Don't what? Don't care that you've essentially divorced your brother and have an alcoholic nephew who's been wandering the streets for the last few months? Don't care that you never mentioned Tates Correctional Facility?" Seeing him pale, she continued, "Let me guess. You weren't on personal leave like you told me; there's another reason you haven't worked recently and you've barely called."
"Fine, you want the truth? I went on an unauthorized undercover mission inside Tates because I heard rumors of abuse from Donny who was there doing time for being part of a meth deal. As a result, I was suspended for five months. As for Frank, he's a liar and a drug addict. Good riddance is all I can say."
She looked at Bobby closely for a long moment. "Nice try. You don't tell anyone anything because once you let someone in, they can hurt you. You're afraid to admit that I actually mean something to you, and so you're hoping I'll run now that I know it all."
Carolyn knew she had crossed a line by how Bobby's face darkened, and how he took a deep breath before stepping closer to her.
"How dare you-you have no right to profile me-"
"Perhaps not, but I thought you needed to hear the truth. Now I'd better go before my taxi leaves." Before he could reply, Carolyn had gotten in the taxi.
In the street, Bobby swore, then remembered Donny. Taking a deep breath, he tentatively entered his apartment.
"Um, hi, uncle Bobby." Donny replied, springing up off the couch. "You never told me you have a girlfriend. She's pretty hot."
Bobby hung up his coat, then turned back to Donny. "So how long have you been on the street, and drinking?"
"I-ah- my mom kicked me out two weeks ago, because she found a bottle of vodka in my closet. She told me that she wouldn't take me in again until I got my act together. I only started drinking two months ago when a friend of mine was murdered. I mean, he was too young to die, you know? I've seen some serious crap in my life so far, but that..."
Bobby nodded. "Why didn't you tell me where you went after you left the hospital? I was worried."
"I'm sorry about that, Bobby. No matter what, I didn't want to go back to Tates. I really thought Frank would help you. He didn't?"
Bobby shook his head. Donny whistled. "That's low, man. How did you get out?"
"My partner and captain did it."
"What about the guards?"
"They got ten years in Rikers a month ago. Speaking of prison, you still have eight months of your sentence left."
"I know. But if the guards are at Rikers too..."
Bobby looked at him. "I understand. Listen, why don't you sleep on the couch tonight, and then I'll talk to Captain Ross and see if we can use a Major Case holding cell while we wait to see if we can transfer you to Allenwood."
"Thanks. Do you mind if I use your shower?"
"Not at all. It's right through there." Donny nodded, and Bobby collapsed on his couch. He wanted to stay here to keep an eye on Donny, but he felt that he wouldn't run off this time. Bobby looked out the window, and remembered his argument with Carolyn. He sighed, and wished he could have a drink. Fifteen minutes later, Donny emerged from the shower to tell him he was going to get some sleep. Bobby waited until he was asleep, then left him a note as he locked the apartment behind him.
On his second glass of Glenlivit, Goren felt a hand on his shoulder and turned to find Detective Logan.
"Easy there, big guy. Surely your day wasn't that bad?"
Goren put down his drink. "Don't take this the wrong way, Logan, but I don't want to talk right now."
"Fair enough." Logan ordered some pop, and remained silent for a few minutes. Then he turned on his stool to face his coworker.
"All right Goren, if it wasn't a case, your drinking must be personal. How's Carolyn?"
Goren coughed as the Glenlivit went down the wrong way.
"Ah, I see. You know, I think the two of you are quite similar, so I'm a little surprised. What did she do; analyze your past for the reason behind something you said?"
"I-how did you know?"
"Barek did that during our first case. She told a suspect something about my past to make him trust us enough to confess. I didn't talk to her for the next few days, when she apologized."
"What was it?"
Logan looked around the bar, which was almost deserted this late at night. "Before I tell you anything, this goes no further, understand?"
"You have my word, Logan." Bobby replied, and the men shook on it. Logan took another sip before he placed his drink down.
"When I was growing up, my mom drank. She sent me out for the booze, and if I brought back the wrong kind or she wasn't sober, she'd hit me. The only reason I went to her funeral is because it was expected of me as her son. There. Now that I've spilled my guts, it's your turn, Goren."
Goren sat back, eyeing Logan with new respect. His resilience and dedication was noteworthy.
"So both of us had difficult childhoods, then-"
"Don't you dare start profiling me. I don't know how Eames can stand it." Logan added quickly. "Oh, and here's a news flash for you. There's no such thing as a normal childhood."
Goren nodded, then smiled slightly. "I agree. As for the profiling, me and Eames made an agreement early in our partnership that I would never analyze her."
"Good idea. Now, you and Carolyn?"
Goren sighed. "I've told Carolyn some stuff about my past, but she didn't know that I have a nephew. I also never told her about the suspension."
Logan spit his drink slightly. "Goren, I've worked with you for three years, and I didn't know that until your suspension. Close to the vest was invented to describe people like you. Anyway, go on."
"Donny showed up this evening when Carolyn was waiting for me to get home from work. She told me, and we had a fight about me not telling her personal stuff."
"Your nephew Donny Carlson?"
Bobby nodded.
Logan paused for a moment. "Wow. It's good to hear that he's off the streets." He looked into Goren's eyes. "So, if you didn't tell Carolyn about Donny or the suspension, she had a good point."
Goren looked down. "Yeah, she did. Most of my previous relationships ended after a few months because the woman couldn't handle my mom, the job, or my quirkiness."
"But Carolyn knows all that, and has decided to stay anyway. Doesn't that tell you that she loves you?" Seeing Goren's uncertain look, Logan pressed on. "Let me guess. She hasn't come right out and said it, and so neither have you."
"Logan, I have better things to do then listen to your advice." Bobby growled, and moved to leave.
"Not just yet, Goren. Sit down."
"What is this, some sort of male bonding ritual?"
"We are in a bar, Goren."
"Right." He sat back down.
Logan lowered his voice, and leaned closer to him. "I'll be blunt. What you have to decide for yourself is if you love Carolyn, despite her faults, and tell her so. Where does Carolyn place in your life? If she's important enough, you'll apologize and ensure she's told everything. You also have to make sure that you spend as much time with Carolyn as she wants you to and that you have time for."
"I have the feeling that an ex girlfriend told you that?"
"Two of them, actually. I might take a little longer to pick up on things then some people, but I'd like to think I learn from my past."
Looking at his watch, Goren grimaced. "On that note, I'm going to have to leave and get some sleep. Carolyn's at a hotel right now. Oh, and thanks for the talk." Logan nodded.
"Good night, Goren. See you around."
"You too, Logan."
The next morning, Bobby woke to the doorbell. Who's there at 8 AM on my day off, he thought. Curious, he threw on jeans and a sweatshirt before opening the door cautiously.
"Carolyn. What are you doing here?"
"I- well, I came to talk, and give you a peace offering. I hope I didn't wake you." She held up an aromatic bag. "Can I come in?"
"Of course." he stepped aside, and Carolyn placed her purse just inside the door then swept past him to place the bag on the kitchen table. "Where's Donny?"
As if summoned, Donny stepped into the kitchen at that moment. "Mmm, that smells delicious. Do you mind if I have one?" Looking between the two adults, he grabbed a croissant, and quickly backed out of the room. "You know, I think I'll go for a walk. See you later."
"Why don't we sit down?"
"I-sure. Do you want something to drink?"
"No, I'm fine, thanks."
An awkward silence filled the room like fog for a few minutes.
"Bobby-" Carolyn stated at the same time he called her name.
"Ladies first."
Carolyn sighed, then looked him in the eye. "I shouldn't have profiled you, Bobby. That's appropriate for suspects, but not for you. It won't happen again. But I was sick and tired of being ignored, and I wanted to know why. I suppose I should have gotten used to the fact that you don't share your personal life. If I had as bad a personal history as you do, I'd be reluctant as well. It's not my job to change you, not that I would want to." She took his hand. "I love you, Bobby Goren, and that doesn't come with conditions."
Bobby let out his breath, and smiled. "I love you just as you are too, Carolyn. You were right that I was pushing you away. I'm so used to the job being all there is. When there was nothing else, I didn't know who I was anymore... Now that Donny is all I have left of my family, I want to get to know him better. But you're also very important, and I'll try to be more open in the future."
"So then I come third place?"
"I-"
"I can live with that, Bobby. After Justin, I threw myself into the job as well. As for my family, well, you know some of that..."
"What part of it don't I know? Disclosure goes both ways, Carolyn."
"You're right." Carolyn took out a croissant, and Bobby took the opportunity to eat one as well. When she was done, she turned to him.
"Well, you already know about Ellen and Kate. But my dad Bernard... Well, let's just say we haven't had the best relationship since Helen died."
"Why?"
"What I didn't tell you is-" Carolyn got up, and faced away from Bobby.
He gently placed a hand on her shoulder. "Take your time."
"The weekend my mom died of the heart attack, I was walking with them around New York. Helen had breast cancer and even with the treatment, she would have died in a few months. Every doctor we talked to said that the exercise we were doing had nothing to do with her death. At the funeral, I commented that it was good that Mom had gone peacefully to avoid more suffering, and Bernard disagreed. He accused me of killing her and that by moving away from home, I had caused them to have to visit me. I shot right back that he loved her more then me and it went downhill from there. We made up that Christmas, but it hasn't been the same since."
"You still blame yourself for her death, just like you blame yourself for Hyun's and Ellen's deaths."
"I-" She turned to face him. "Maybe I do."
"You shouldn't. You have nothing to feel guilty for."
"Thank you for saying that, Bobby." Carolyn wrapped her arms around his waist. Bobby returned the embrace. "I'm sure that you've read Shakespeare. Each of his main characters in the tragedies have a fatal flaw which lead to their deaths by the end of the play. If I had to pick one for myself, it would be my need to control life; to have the power to make sure nothing changes."
"The only thing we can be sure of in this life is that change will happen. When my mom was dying, I wanted to explore every option to keep her alive as long as possible. But I finally had to admit that it was her life, and she would die in her own time."
"That must have been hard, especially since you'd been taking care of her for so long."
"It was one of the hardest things I've had to do." Bobby softly replied. He pulled back slightly.
"Thank you for your honesty, Carolyn. It's one of the things that I love about you."
"You're welcome, Bobby." Putting her arms around her neck, she whispered in his ear. "Is there anything else you love about me?"
"Yes there is. Will you let me show you?"
"That sounds promising." Carolyn said, playing with his sweatshirt.
"Come here." Bobby propelled Carolyn into his bedroom and shut the door.
"First, I love your neck." He kissed it. "Then your shoulder..."
