I am writing this to take place right after the car accident in Paternity. It's all Olivia and will be different from what will happen on the show. I know this because Liv is shown up and running after the accident like she wasn't just in a horrific car accident. Anywho...here it starts.
Part 1: The Inside Out
She never saw the car. She never saw the headlights, never heard the sound of a speeding car coming. She could have sworn she had a green light. First she felt the hit then...silence. Everything went black.
Now she hears sirens, sounds of men, words that she can't make out. Her head pounds but her body is numb. She can't feel her legs, her arms. She can't move. Just lie still and help will come. She will get out. She has to.
A short time of consciousness then the abyss follows. Silence takes over for the later part of the day or was it longer? She couldn't tell. Everything was fuzzy.
The lights hurt her. She began to open her eyes but slowly. She felt as if she were floating off the bed. The bed. Where was she? She tried to speak but her vocal cords would not work for her. Instead, she moved her hand. She could see a figure but couldn't make it out. Was it a doctor? Someone she knew?
As she began to come around, the man she saw was Elliot. Why did he look so relieved? He looked worried. What happened? Then she began to panic. Kathy. What had happened to Kathy? The baby? Her heart rate jumped. Her breathing began to be erratic. She felt tears travel down her cheeks. She wanted to say sorry. She wanted to tell him that she wanted to do something but couldn't. She wanted to ask him if Kathy was okay. The car hit her side. It hit her side. She could be dead. The baby could have died. Was it her fault? Nothing was clear to her. She wanted answers.
Elliot reached for her face and wiped away some of the fallen tears. She wanted to speak so badly but the tube down her throat would not permit her to make any sounds. It hurt to cry. It was as if the muscles in her throat were tightening up, squeezing the tub.
Elliot placed a hand on her forehead and tried his best to comfort her. He tried to make her relax because if she continued, she would have stopped breathing.
Before exhaustion took over once again, before darkness consumed her yet again, she heard “Kathy and the baby are fine Liv. Now sleep...” Silence followed but not the light.
I know this was a bit quick and short but I wanted to start the story with Olivia's perspective. I wanted everyone to feel her panic, see how she would be reacting to what was happening. This is a story about Olivia. What she goes through and what happens afterwards. I hope you all liked it and stick with the story.
I do want to warn everyone before hand. This is not a happy story. It will end on a sad note. Sorry...
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There are no words that could describe how perfectly beautiful this is. And you know me; Im chop full of words. I cant wait to read more...like really I CANT wait. Update soon kk?
OKay! I'm going to review it here because youre account at fanfic.net doesn't allow anonymous reviews and I'm to lazy to make an account.
That was written so beautifully Mary, trully outstanding job. I really felt Olivia's pain and shock and then the concern for Kathy. I also loved how Elliot is at Liv's bedside even though Kathy was injured too, I see EO in the very near future.Yay! I can't wait for the next bit, but you scared me by saying that its a sad story. I still want to see what happens though.
That was written so beautifully Mary, trully outstanding job. I really felt Olivia's pain and shock and then the concern for Kathy. I also loved how Elliot is at Liv's bedside even though Kathy was injured too, I see EO in the very near future.Yay! I can't wait for the next bit, but you scared me by saying that its a sad story. I still want to see what happens though.
QUOTE (SVUisLuv @ Nov 22 2007, 01:05 AM) 
OKay! I'm going to review it here because youre account at fanfic.net doesn't allow anonymous reviews and I'm to lazy to make an account.
That was written so beautifully Mary, trully outstanding job. I really felt Olivia's pain and shock and then the concern for Kathy. I also loved how Elliot is at Liv's bedside even though Kathy was injured too, I see EO in the very near future.Yay! I can't wait for the next bit, but you scared me by saying that its a sad story. I still want to see what happens though.
That was written so beautifully Mary, trully outstanding job. I really felt Olivia's pain and shock and then the concern for Kathy. I also loved how Elliot is at Liv's bedside even though Kathy was injured too, I see EO in the very near future.Yay! I can't wait for the next bit, but you scared me by saying that its a sad story. I still want to see what happens though.
You are in for a shock. LOL! This story plot has been in the back of my mind ever since I heard about the possible accident so this will be the best story that I have ever written. I will make tears all around the world. LOL! Thanks for the reviews people. I promise to update as soon as possible. I am currently working on the next chapter.
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I'm so oober excited about Paternity that I say the more fanfic that comes from it the better. It's the only way to keep my mind off of the fact that we have six days and I have to spend several of them with my insane family. AH! Anyway, very lovely writing. I love that Elliot has to comfort and almost save her in this version. Is that arcaic of me? yeah... it is. But I'm so modern in every other form so let me have this one thing. Elliot saving the Livia! And Olivia having her always humble loving attitude. She never thinks of herself. At least she didn't. Recently she's starting to stick up for her needs, but I like that. It's high time she's made a few changes even if they seem selfish. But I do like my care-taker Olivia!
So please- keep going with this and the faster you can update the better. I love love love it!
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So please- keep going with this and the faster you can update the better. I love love love it!
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Hi Bubba here, wow, what a story.
love the story!! I can't wait to read more!!
The reviews for the first chapter were phenomenal. You all really know how to make a girl feel special. LOL! Here is the fast update I promised.
Part 2: The Awakening
As Olivia began to come around, she could feel every muscle in her body aching. Her head seemed to want to seek revenge for what she had put it through. Whiplash did not even begin to describe the way her head jerked. As she opened her eyes, she could see a woman standing in front of her with a clip board in hand. Olivia thought it may be a nurse.
The lights were too damn bright. She wanted to shout at the nurse, Laura according to her name badge, to dim them or turn them off. Once the nurse saw that Olivia had woken up, she rushed to the nurses desk and asked the desk clerk to inform the doctor.
The next time Olivia saw was Laura entering her room with a doctor. The doctor came close to Olivia and sat down at her bed side.
“Hello Ms. Benson. How do you feel?”
“I…c..a…n..t…”
“Talk? Let me see if we can get the tub out. It may be easier on you without it in. Now that you are awake I see no need for it.”
He informed Olivia to lay back and relax. “I need you to be still and I should warn you that you may gag. Just try to relax okay?”
Olivia nodded and did what the doctor told her to do. She could feel the tub slowly sliding out. She thought that it would be never ending until she no longer felt it. It was like a relief that she couldn’t describe.
“Your throat will be soar for a few days. You may want to stick with liquids until you can gain some feeling back in there. Now if you would like to rest, I can leave you and come back later?”
Olivia shook her head yes and watched as the doctor and nurse left her room. As she laid back and tried to get comfortable, she couldn’t help but think that something bad was going to come from what had happened.
She felt her eye lids getting heavy and then remembered whispers as the lights began to fade. Nightmares would be greeting her as she slumbered: flashes of sudden movements, lights, sounds, voices that could not be made out. It was like a Chinese film but without the subtitles. It frustrated her even in her dreams.
A short time passed when Olivia felt someone gripping her wrist. Her instinct as a cop was to yank it away. The nurse looked at her in surprise and Olivia felt so bad.
“I’m…sorry…”
“It’s okay Ms. Benson. I get that a lot. I startled you.”
“Call…me…Olivia.”
“Okay Olivia. Would you like me to get the doctor for you?”
Olivia nodded her head yes. The nurse left and entered with the same doctor that Olivia had spoken with earlier.
“Hi Olivia. Do you feel up to talking?”
“Please.”
“Okay, well I need to let you know that you have been in and out of consciousness for three weeks now.”
Olivia had a shocked look on her face. She knew that accident was bad but she had no idea that it would be this harmful to her. It didn’t even hit on her side. Kathy should have had the majority of the harm.
“What…about…Kathy?”
“Is that the woman that was in the car with you?”
“Yes.”
“Mrs. Stabler has already been discharged. She had a broken arm, and some cuts and bruises but she will be fine. Her son was nice and healthy. They went home about a week ago.
A son? Elliot has a son? She didn’t know how to feel about the entire baby situation. In fact, she was still a bit numb about the whole thing. But knowing he had a son just felt so official. So real.
“I’m…glad.”
“What I really need to discus with you is about your situation. Olivia I am not going to beat around the bush. You suffered massive head trauma. Your head jerked back so fast from the combination of the air bag and the car hitting you that it caused some fluid to build up in your occipital lobe. Normally this would only cause blindness but the fluid has begun to spread. Therein lays the damage. I wish that I could say it will get better. But I can’t.”
“What…are…you…saying?”
Olivia began to panic. Was he telling her that she was dying? Was he saying that she suffered brain damage? Olivia was so worried. Her heart rate jumped and she began to sweat.
“I’m saying no one in New York has the kind of technology you need in order to treat it. I can suggest a great hospital. UCSD medical center in California has a great staff, great up to date technology and a specialist that can help you.”
“I can’t…afford to…pay for…that. What will…happen…if I…don’t get…the surgery?”
“Olivia, if you don’t get the surgery your brain will continue to produce the fluid and it will most certainly kill you.”
Tears began to fall softly down Olivia’s cheeks. She didn’t want to die. She felt helpless and alone.
“How long?”
“How long for what?”
“Until it kills me. How long do I have?”
“With the amount of time and percentage the fluid is building up? I would say a month. Give or take a week. There is no one that could help you financially? Your father? Mother? Any relatives?”
“No. There’s no one. My mother… and father… are both dead…and my brother… has enough problems.”
“I wish there was something I could do to help.”
“You can…You could…discharge me. I want…to go…home.”
“Ms. Benson I fully recommend…”
“No! If I’m…going to die…I want…to be…in my…own comfort.”
The doctor shook his head and said, “Let me get the release forms. But I want to make this clear that this is strongly against my advice. I will make you a list of things I recommend you do in order to get by. I will also list some symptoms you will experiance when home alone.”
He left Olivia to her thoughts. Olivia sat on her bed in silence. She always used to say that she never wanted to know when she would die. Now she was faced with a choice that she could not make. She had to face the fact that she was going to die in less then two months.
The doctor re-entered her room with a folder filled with lists of do’s and don’ts. Work was at the top of the don’t list. How was she going to explain to Cragen that she was out of the hospital but she couldn’t go to work? Should she tell him?
“I need you to know that you will experience some dizziness and may vomit. That is unavoidable I’m afraid. No driving. Do you have someone to give you a ride home?”
Just as she was about to say no, someone interrupted.
“Yes, I can drive her.”
“Casey?”
“Well, I will leave you. I truly hope you change your mind about the treatment. In the folder I gave you, my card is inside with my cell phone number. If you have any questions, please call me any time, day or night.”
“Thanks.”
He nodded and left her alone with Casey.
“I just…need to get…changed then we can…go.”
“Okay, I will wait outside.”
Olivia smiled and then made her way to the bathroom. As she got ready, she decided to not tell anyone. She didn’t want them to treat her differently. She just wanted them to remember her as the ball busting Benson; the indestructible woman that wouldn’t take crap from anyone or let fear and pain rule her. No one was going to know. No one.
As she slowly made her way out of the room, she noticed that Casey was no longer waiting outside. In her place was Elliot.
“Hey…where’s Casey?”
“She had a 911 text message from the DA. I guess I’m your ride.”
He smiled. She loved it when he smiled. It was like the cherry on her day. She knew that his smile was what she would miss the most.
“You ready Liv?”
“Yeah…let’s go.”
With that said, she sat in the wheel chair the nurse provided for her and made her way to her apartment along side a man she would never get the opportunity to love like she had always wanted. A man that gave her hope that one day she would be happy like never before. Now it was all falling to pieces and she was powerless to stop it.
I warned you that it would be sad. It is only going to get more emotional. I am digging deep here people! LOL! I hope you all liked it and please tell me what you think. I love reading all of your reviews.
Part 2: The Awakening
As Olivia began to come around, she could feel every muscle in her body aching. Her head seemed to want to seek revenge for what she had put it through. Whiplash did not even begin to describe the way her head jerked. As she opened her eyes, she could see a woman standing in front of her with a clip board in hand. Olivia thought it may be a nurse.
The lights were too damn bright. She wanted to shout at the nurse, Laura according to her name badge, to dim them or turn them off. Once the nurse saw that Olivia had woken up, she rushed to the nurses desk and asked the desk clerk to inform the doctor.
The next time Olivia saw was Laura entering her room with a doctor. The doctor came close to Olivia and sat down at her bed side.
“Hello Ms. Benson. How do you feel?”
“I…c..a…n..t…”
“Talk? Let me see if we can get the tub out. It may be easier on you without it in. Now that you are awake I see no need for it.”
He informed Olivia to lay back and relax. “I need you to be still and I should warn you that you may gag. Just try to relax okay?”
Olivia nodded and did what the doctor told her to do. She could feel the tub slowly sliding out. She thought that it would be never ending until she no longer felt it. It was like a relief that she couldn’t describe.
“Your throat will be soar for a few days. You may want to stick with liquids until you can gain some feeling back in there. Now if you would like to rest, I can leave you and come back later?”
Olivia shook her head yes and watched as the doctor and nurse left her room. As she laid back and tried to get comfortable, she couldn’t help but think that something bad was going to come from what had happened.
She felt her eye lids getting heavy and then remembered whispers as the lights began to fade. Nightmares would be greeting her as she slumbered: flashes of sudden movements, lights, sounds, voices that could not be made out. It was like a Chinese film but without the subtitles. It frustrated her even in her dreams.
A short time passed when Olivia felt someone gripping her wrist. Her instinct as a cop was to yank it away. The nurse looked at her in surprise and Olivia felt so bad.
“I’m…sorry…”
“It’s okay Ms. Benson. I get that a lot. I startled you.”
“Call…me…Olivia.”
“Okay Olivia. Would you like me to get the doctor for you?”
Olivia nodded her head yes. The nurse left and entered with the same doctor that Olivia had spoken with earlier.
“Hi Olivia. Do you feel up to talking?”
“Please.”
“Okay, well I need to let you know that you have been in and out of consciousness for three weeks now.”
Olivia had a shocked look on her face. She knew that accident was bad but she had no idea that it would be this harmful to her. It didn’t even hit on her side. Kathy should have had the majority of the harm.
“What…about…Kathy?”
“Is that the woman that was in the car with you?”
“Yes.”
“Mrs. Stabler has already been discharged. She had a broken arm, and some cuts and bruises but she will be fine. Her son was nice and healthy. They went home about a week ago.
A son? Elliot has a son? She didn’t know how to feel about the entire baby situation. In fact, she was still a bit numb about the whole thing. But knowing he had a son just felt so official. So real.
“I’m…glad.”
“What I really need to discus with you is about your situation. Olivia I am not going to beat around the bush. You suffered massive head trauma. Your head jerked back so fast from the combination of the air bag and the car hitting you that it caused some fluid to build up in your occipital lobe. Normally this would only cause blindness but the fluid has begun to spread. Therein lays the damage. I wish that I could say it will get better. But I can’t.”
“What…are…you…saying?”
Olivia began to panic. Was he telling her that she was dying? Was he saying that she suffered brain damage? Olivia was so worried. Her heart rate jumped and she began to sweat.
“I’m saying no one in New York has the kind of technology you need in order to treat it. I can suggest a great hospital. UCSD medical center in California has a great staff, great up to date technology and a specialist that can help you.”
“I can’t…afford to…pay for…that. What will…happen…if I…don’t get…the surgery?”
“Olivia, if you don’t get the surgery your brain will continue to produce the fluid and it will most certainly kill you.”
Tears began to fall softly down Olivia’s cheeks. She didn’t want to die. She felt helpless and alone.
“How long?”
“How long for what?”
“Until it kills me. How long do I have?”
“With the amount of time and percentage the fluid is building up? I would say a month. Give or take a week. There is no one that could help you financially? Your father? Mother? Any relatives?”
“No. There’s no one. My mother… and father… are both dead…and my brother… has enough problems.”
“I wish there was something I could do to help.”
“You can…You could…discharge me. I want…to go…home.”
“Ms. Benson I fully recommend…”
“No! If I’m…going to die…I want…to be…in my…own comfort.”
The doctor shook his head and said, “Let me get the release forms. But I want to make this clear that this is strongly against my advice. I will make you a list of things I recommend you do in order to get by. I will also list some symptoms you will experiance when home alone.”
He left Olivia to her thoughts. Olivia sat on her bed in silence. She always used to say that she never wanted to know when she would die. Now she was faced with a choice that she could not make. She had to face the fact that she was going to die in less then two months.
The doctor re-entered her room with a folder filled with lists of do’s and don’ts. Work was at the top of the don’t list. How was she going to explain to Cragen that she was out of the hospital but she couldn’t go to work? Should she tell him?
“I need you to know that you will experience some dizziness and may vomit. That is unavoidable I’m afraid. No driving. Do you have someone to give you a ride home?”
Just as she was about to say no, someone interrupted.
“Yes, I can drive her.”
“Casey?”
“Well, I will leave you. I truly hope you change your mind about the treatment. In the folder I gave you, my card is inside with my cell phone number. If you have any questions, please call me any time, day or night.”
“Thanks.”
He nodded and left her alone with Casey.
“I just…need to get…changed then we can…go.”
“Okay, I will wait outside.”
Olivia smiled and then made her way to the bathroom. As she got ready, she decided to not tell anyone. She didn’t want them to treat her differently. She just wanted them to remember her as the ball busting Benson; the indestructible woman that wouldn’t take crap from anyone or let fear and pain rule her. No one was going to know. No one.
As she slowly made her way out of the room, she noticed that Casey was no longer waiting outside. In her place was Elliot.
“Hey…where’s Casey?”
“She had a 911 text message from the DA. I guess I’m your ride.”
He smiled. She loved it when he smiled. It was like the cherry on her day. She knew that his smile was what she would miss the most.
“You ready Liv?”
“Yeah…let’s go.”
With that said, she sat in the wheel chair the nurse provided for her and made her way to her apartment along side a man she would never get the opportunity to love like she had always wanted. A man that gave her hope that one day she would be happy like never before. Now it was all falling to pieces and she was powerless to stop it.
I warned you that it would be sad. It is only going to get more emotional. I am digging deep here people! LOL! I hope you all liked it and please tell me what you think. I love reading all of your reviews.
Oh. My. God. I wasnt expecting that at all. Amazing. Brilliant. Beautiful. Gosh Im breathless here. I cant wait for more. Update soon kk?
On no! What did you do!? I just can't take the Liv death. It's like EO death. Okay...I'm gonna deal...just fix it mmkay! 
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Nice update! Keep going!
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waiting. i can't wait until the next chapter
Hurry and update!! I love this story!!
This chapter is dedicated to all of the people who gave me great reviews. This section is also inspired by the Likin Park song “Leave Out All the Rest.” I thought it fit perfectly with the way Olivia was feeling.
Part 3: Leave Out All the Rest
The ride was silent at first. Olivia wanted to tell Elliot what the doctor had told her but she was afraid. She didn’t want him to treat her any different then he did before the accident. If only she knew what to do say in order to get him to stop looking back and forth between her and the traffic. He did it about ten times before she spoke up.
“What?”
“What?”
“Why do you keep looking at me?”
“What happened Liv?”
Olivia turned her attention back onto the traffic. She was not at all prepared for Elliot’s intuition to kick in. All she wanted to do was go home, make a cup of tea, sit in silence and think about what she wanted to do before her life ended.
“I was in a car accident Elliot. What more do you want me to say?”
“I meant what did the doctor say?”
“None of your business.”
“Liv…”
“It’s nothing Elliot.”
“Liv…talk to me.”
In order to drown out all of the conversation, Olivia reached out to the radio and pushed the on button. She changed it to her favorite radio station and sighed a relief when she heard commercials. She never thought cleanser could make her feel so relieved. Then, the music came on. The song hit her like a ton of bricks. She recognized it. Linkin Park is her favorite band.
Dreamed I was missing
You were so scared
But no one would listen
Cause no one else cared
After my dreaming
I woke with this fear
What am I leaving
When I'm done here
So if you're asking me
I want you to know
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed
And don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest
It was like God was sending her a message. She wanted to reach out and turn it off but for some reason her arms were not getting the signal from her brain. It was as if the song was taking over her bodily functions. She leaned back, looked out the window and silent tears began to seep through her eyes.
Don't be afraid
I've taking my beating
I've shared what I've been
I'm strong on the surface
Not all the way through
I've never been perfect
But neither have you
So if you're asking me
I want you to know
When my time comes
She never thought her time would come so soon. What did she do to deserve such a short life? Was it punishment for her father’s actions?
Forget the wrong that I’ve done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed
Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest
Forgetting
All the hurt inside
You've learned to hide so well
I’ve learned to hide so much. The man I have given my heart to is sitting right next to me and I can’t even tell him. I can’t tell him how much I love him, how much I would have given to just be able to hear him breathing next to me in bed, to hear his heart beating after making love, to hear him whisper my name in the dark.
Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I’ve done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed
Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest
Forgetting
All the hurt inside
You've learned to hide so well
Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are
I can't be who you are
I wish I could give him all of me but now I can’t. I can’t hurt him. I can’t.
“Can’t what?”
“Huh?”
“You said I can’t hurt him. I can’t. Can’t hurt who Liv?”
“Look Elliot I appreciate you helping me, I do, but don’t okay?”
Elliot just groaned, turned off the radio and continued to drive in silence. She knew that he knew something was up. She also knew his stubbornness. He was not going to let this go.
As soon as Elliot pulled into her drive way, he unbuckled his seat belt and turned off the engine. He sat in silence for a few seconds before he said, “You scared the crap out of me.”
“What? Why?”
When he turned to her, Olivia could see the worry in his eyes. “Don’t you know how much you mean to me? Olivia, you’re my best friend, my partner. You know things about me that Kathy will never understand and will never hear. I can tell you things that I have never been able to tell anyone. You almost died. Do you have any idea what that would have done to me?”
I can’t look at him. I turned to the window and sighed. “You would have shed a few tears and moved on with your life.”
Olivia felt his hand on her arm. “I would have been heart broken Olivia. You aren’t some random person in my life. You know that right?”
“I know you care about me Elliot. But I am just your friend, nothing more.”
“You’re more then that Liv.”
She turned to look into his eyes and said, “No Elliot. No I’m not.”
She let go of his arm and left the car. Why was he doing this to her? It was so much easier when she thought he was just her friend. That way she wasn’t hurting anyone. Now, Elliot was practically declaring his feelings for her. Just as she reached her door, she could hear Elliot following her. She unlocked her door and made her way inside. Elliot snuck his way in before she got a chance to open the door.
“What are you doing? Go home Elliot.”
“No. Not until you understand what I am trying to say.”
“I do understand. You care about me. I get it. Now can you please go? I’m tired.”
“It’s more then just caring about you Liv.”
“You know I liked you better when you didn’t talk about your feelings.”
Elliot laughed and went to engulf her in a hug. He kissed her head and pulled her closer to him. As he was holding her, Olivia closed her eyes and sighed. She loved the way he held her and the best part was that two of her dreams came true. She could hear his heart beat and his breathing.
Still holding her, Elliot said, “I love you Liv.”
She pulled back. “What? Elliot…”
“I do. I can’t explain why or how Liv. I just…do. When I heard about the accident, I was so worried.”
“Of course you were Elliot. Your wife and unborn child were in danger.”
“Why do you do that?”
“Do what? Make sense?”
“No right yourself off like you aren’t important. You were in that car to Liv.”
“So? Elliot I’m not leaving behind anything but my job. What do I care what happens to me.”
“I care!”
He took a breather, took off his jacket, set it on the back of her couch and leaned against the back of it with his arms crossed across his chest.
“I can’t understand why you are having such a hard time imagining that someone cares about you.”
“It’s not for you to understand but for you to accept. This is who I am. It’s how I grew up El. Before I met you, no one in my life gave a crap what happened to me. My mother could care less if I ever came back home. In fact, that may have been a blessing for her. I never had any family or friends give three shits about me so tell me how I am supposed to just accept it when…”
“When what?”
“Nothing.”
“No tell me. Liv please. I need to know.”
“Need to know what?! God you are so…”
“Charming.”
“Annoying and nosy!”
“That to. Tell me Liv.”
“What do you want me to say Elliot?!”
He walked over to her, looked into her eyes and whispered, “Tell me what the doctor said Liv.”
“FINE! HE TOLD ME I’M DYING ELLIOT! IS THAT WHAT YOU WANTED TO HEAR?!” She turned away from him and leaned against the wall. Her eyes were planted on the carpet in her apartment. She never knew it could be so appealing.
Elliot looked at her and tried to decide if she was saying this to get him to shut up or if she was telling the truth.
“Liv, what did he say?”
She took a moment to breath in and out. Her head was throbbing, her body ached and all she wanted to do was sleep. She turned back to him and looked down.
“He said that my head was hit with such force that I am developing fluid in my brain. There is no way to operate and so I’m dying.”
“How…how long?”
“6 months at the most. I still have to do some research on the symptoms.”
Elliot felt tears slip from his eyes. He walked closer to her and tried to gather her up in his arms before she stopped him.
“No don’t. I don’t need or want your sympathy. Just go.”
“This isn’t for you. This is for me. Please.”
She sighed and let him come to her. He took her in his arms and cried. He didn’t sob because he knew that would only hurt the both of them. He couldn’t think. It was as if his entire thoughts and feelings went numb.
“Are you tired?”
“Yes.”
“Let me hold you please?”
“El…”
“Please?”
She sighed once more and said, “Okay. Just let me get changed.”
She walked into her room, changed into flannel cotton pants and a t-shirt and sat on the edge of her bed in silence before she heard a knock at the door. She couldn’t believe she was letting him do this. She was letting him in and in the end, all it was going to do was cause her more pain then happiness.
“It’s open El.”
He walked in with his jeans and t-shirt still on. She lay down on the side she always sleeps on and waited for him to lay next to her. She couldn’t take her eyes off of him. He mesmerized her in a way no one else could. She felt his arms wrap around her waist and she maneuvered herself so she was lying on his chest. She fell asleep to the sound of his heart beat and the movement of his chest as it contracted with every breath he took.
Okay there it is. I hope you enjoyed it and please leave reviews. I love reading all of them.
Part 3: Leave Out All the Rest
The ride was silent at first. Olivia wanted to tell Elliot what the doctor had told her but she was afraid. She didn’t want him to treat her any different then he did before the accident. If only she knew what to do say in order to get him to stop looking back and forth between her and the traffic. He did it about ten times before she spoke up.
“What?”
“What?”
“Why do you keep looking at me?”
“What happened Liv?”
Olivia turned her attention back onto the traffic. She was not at all prepared for Elliot’s intuition to kick in. All she wanted to do was go home, make a cup of tea, sit in silence and think about what she wanted to do before her life ended.
“I was in a car accident Elliot. What more do you want me to say?”
“I meant what did the doctor say?”
“None of your business.”
“Liv…”
“It’s nothing Elliot.”
“Liv…talk to me.”
In order to drown out all of the conversation, Olivia reached out to the radio and pushed the on button. She changed it to her favorite radio station and sighed a relief when she heard commercials. She never thought cleanser could make her feel so relieved. Then, the music came on. The song hit her like a ton of bricks. She recognized it. Linkin Park is her favorite band.
Dreamed I was missing
You were so scared
But no one would listen
Cause no one else cared
After my dreaming
I woke with this fear
What am I leaving
When I'm done here
So if you're asking me
I want you to know
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed
And don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest
It was like God was sending her a message. She wanted to reach out and turn it off but for some reason her arms were not getting the signal from her brain. It was as if the song was taking over her bodily functions. She leaned back, looked out the window and silent tears began to seep through her eyes.
Don't be afraid
I've taking my beating
I've shared what I've been
I'm strong on the surface
Not all the way through
I've never been perfect
But neither have you
So if you're asking me
I want you to know
When my time comes
She never thought her time would come so soon. What did she do to deserve such a short life? Was it punishment for her father’s actions?
Forget the wrong that I’ve done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed
Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest
Forgetting
All the hurt inside
You've learned to hide so well
I’ve learned to hide so much. The man I have given my heart to is sitting right next to me and I can’t even tell him. I can’t tell him how much I love him, how much I would have given to just be able to hear him breathing next to me in bed, to hear his heart beating after making love, to hear him whisper my name in the dark.
Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I’ve done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed
Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest
Forgetting
All the hurt inside
You've learned to hide so well
Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are
I can't be who you are
I wish I could give him all of me but now I can’t. I can’t hurt him. I can’t.
“Can’t what?”
“Huh?”
“You said I can’t hurt him. I can’t. Can’t hurt who Liv?”
“Look Elliot I appreciate you helping me, I do, but don’t okay?”
Elliot just groaned, turned off the radio and continued to drive in silence. She knew that he knew something was up. She also knew his stubbornness. He was not going to let this go.
As soon as Elliot pulled into her drive way, he unbuckled his seat belt and turned off the engine. He sat in silence for a few seconds before he said, “You scared the crap out of me.”
“What? Why?”
When he turned to her, Olivia could see the worry in his eyes. “Don’t you know how much you mean to me? Olivia, you’re my best friend, my partner. You know things about me that Kathy will never understand and will never hear. I can tell you things that I have never been able to tell anyone. You almost died. Do you have any idea what that would have done to me?”
I can’t look at him. I turned to the window and sighed. “You would have shed a few tears and moved on with your life.”
Olivia felt his hand on her arm. “I would have been heart broken Olivia. You aren’t some random person in my life. You know that right?”
“I know you care about me Elliot. But I am just your friend, nothing more.”
“You’re more then that Liv.”
She turned to look into his eyes and said, “No Elliot. No I’m not.”
She let go of his arm and left the car. Why was he doing this to her? It was so much easier when she thought he was just her friend. That way she wasn’t hurting anyone. Now, Elliot was practically declaring his feelings for her. Just as she reached her door, she could hear Elliot following her. She unlocked her door and made her way inside. Elliot snuck his way in before she got a chance to open the door.
“What are you doing? Go home Elliot.”
“No. Not until you understand what I am trying to say.”
“I do understand. You care about me. I get it. Now can you please go? I’m tired.”
“It’s more then just caring about you Liv.”
“You know I liked you better when you didn’t talk about your feelings.”
Elliot laughed and went to engulf her in a hug. He kissed her head and pulled her closer to him. As he was holding her, Olivia closed her eyes and sighed. She loved the way he held her and the best part was that two of her dreams came true. She could hear his heart beat and his breathing.
Still holding her, Elliot said, “I love you Liv.”
She pulled back. “What? Elliot…”
“I do. I can’t explain why or how Liv. I just…do. When I heard about the accident, I was so worried.”
“Of course you were Elliot. Your wife and unborn child were in danger.”
“Why do you do that?”
“Do what? Make sense?”
“No right yourself off like you aren’t important. You were in that car to Liv.”
“So? Elliot I’m not leaving behind anything but my job. What do I care what happens to me.”
“I care!”
He took a breather, took off his jacket, set it on the back of her couch and leaned against the back of it with his arms crossed across his chest.
“I can’t understand why you are having such a hard time imagining that someone cares about you.”
“It’s not for you to understand but for you to accept. This is who I am. It’s how I grew up El. Before I met you, no one in my life gave a crap what happened to me. My mother could care less if I ever came back home. In fact, that may have been a blessing for her. I never had any family or friends give three shits about me so tell me how I am supposed to just accept it when…”
“When what?”
“Nothing.”
“No tell me. Liv please. I need to know.”
“Need to know what?! God you are so…”
“Charming.”
“Annoying and nosy!”
“That to. Tell me Liv.”
“What do you want me to say Elliot?!”
He walked over to her, looked into her eyes and whispered, “Tell me what the doctor said Liv.”
“FINE! HE TOLD ME I’M DYING ELLIOT! IS THAT WHAT YOU WANTED TO HEAR?!” She turned away from him and leaned against the wall. Her eyes were planted on the carpet in her apartment. She never knew it could be so appealing.
Elliot looked at her and tried to decide if she was saying this to get him to shut up or if she was telling the truth.
“Liv, what did he say?”
She took a moment to breath in and out. Her head was throbbing, her body ached and all she wanted to do was sleep. She turned back to him and looked down.
“He said that my head was hit with such force that I am developing fluid in my brain. There is no way to operate and so I’m dying.”
“How…how long?”
“6 months at the most. I still have to do some research on the symptoms.”
Elliot felt tears slip from his eyes. He walked closer to her and tried to gather her up in his arms before she stopped him.
“No don’t. I don’t need or want your sympathy. Just go.”
“This isn’t for you. This is for me. Please.”
She sighed and let him come to her. He took her in his arms and cried. He didn’t sob because he knew that would only hurt the both of them. He couldn’t think. It was as if his entire thoughts and feelings went numb.
“Are you tired?”
“Yes.”
“Let me hold you please?”
“El…”
“Please?”
She sighed once more and said, “Okay. Just let me get changed.”
She walked into her room, changed into flannel cotton pants and a t-shirt and sat on the edge of her bed in silence before she heard a knock at the door. She couldn’t believe she was letting him do this. She was letting him in and in the end, all it was going to do was cause her more pain then happiness.
“It’s open El.”
He walked in with his jeans and t-shirt still on. She lay down on the side she always sleeps on and waited for him to lay next to her. She couldn’t take her eyes off of him. He mesmerized her in a way no one else could. She felt his arms wrap around her waist and she maneuvered herself so she was lying on his chest. She fell asleep to the sound of his heart beat and the movement of his chest as it contracted with every breath he took.
Okay there it is. I hope you enjoyed it and please leave reviews. I love reading all of them.
OMG IM CRYING! WHY AM I CRYING?! AHHH! THIS IS SOOOOOO GOOD! WORDS CANNOT DESCRIBE HOW GOOD THIS REALLY IS. UPDATE?
oh, Mary. This is heart-breaking. In your review for my story you told me you couldn't read anymore stories where one of them die....are you being hypocritical? PLEASE LET HER LIV! Get it? Lol.
This is really beautiful and I can feel both of their emotions like I'm living through it with them.
I finished reading the chapter, then i saw your siggy of them hugging and started bawling. BAWLING LIKE A GIRL. Oh man.
Loved it!
Laura xoxo
This is really beautiful and I can feel both of their emotions like I'm living through it with them.
I finished reading the chapter, then i saw your siggy of them hugging and started bawling. BAWLING LIKE A GIRL. Oh man.
Loved it!
Laura xoxo
omg mary!!!! i seriously cried! and i know its silly to cry about it, but then again, im a sensitive person and..well... hell that was great 
!!! lol pleeeeease update soon!!!!! omg bravo bravo!
!!! lol pleeeeease update soon!!!!! omg bravo bravo!
ArghhhhhH! I am in tears right now Mary,that was so good but it was so heart wrenching as well.
Poor Liv, poor El poor everyone. I can't believe you're killing her. Noooo! Its so sweet How El is trying to make her see that he love her. At least she'll have some happiness.
I love this story. Update soon please. By the way I'm enthralled with your siggy, I can't stop staring at it.
And Laura you're bawling like a girl because you are a girl. Right?
Denise xoxo
Poor Liv, poor El poor everyone. I can't believe you're killing her. Noooo! Its so sweet How El is trying to make her see that he love her. At least she'll have some happiness.
I love this story. Update soon please. By the way I'm enthralled with your siggy, I can't stop staring at it.
And Laura you're bawling like a girl because you are a girl. Right?
Denise xoxo
this story make me cry me and my mom were reading it and we started to cry
Frank Sinatra inspired this chapter because he is the greatest singer of all time and I thought it would fit my idea for this chapter. It’s a bit long but I hope it entertains you. I promise there is more humor in this chapter. Well…more banter anyways. LOL!
Part 4: Stardust
Not much was said about Olivia’s condition. Elliot didn’t want to make it worse then it had to be for her. Being with her was number one priority. Letting her know how much she will be missed was his goal. All he had to do was get her to accept what he was planning. Now that was the real challenge.
“Liv, stop asking questions and just say yes.”
“Elliot, I seriously don’t want to go anywhere. Just let me sit here with my tea, watch some TV and lounge.”
“Nope. Please Liv. I planned all of this out in advance.”
“Elliot, it has been 3 months since the accident and you have tried to spend every waking hour with me. Not sure Kathy appreciates that.”
Elliot walked over to where Olivia sat on her love seat, took the tea out of her hand and sat it down on the coffee table. He took her hands in his and looked into her eyes.
“Please. It’s just for a few hours, then you can come back here and make like a vegetable.”
Olivia laughed and shook her head. “You are one stubborn man Stabler.”
“Yes I am and you still have not answered my question.”
Olivia bent her head back and closed her eyes, “Fine, but only for a few hours.”
“Until sundown.”
“Sundown! Elliot that’s like 4 hours from now!”
“You already said yes so get up and get dressed.”
She let go of his hands and stood up slowly. She was leisurely getting dizzy and light headed, symptoms she did not like one bit. Everything had to be done step by step. It took her twice as long and hot showers were no longer an option. They had to be warm otherwise she would black out. She slowly made her way into her closet, found a shirt and pair of jeans and then grabbed her coat. Her eye sight was dimming also. It was so hard to focus but she was not so bad that she didn’t need glasses. But no more fretting. She finished getting ready and walked into the living room where Elliot sat and waited for her.
“Okay, let’s go.”
Elliot turned his head and walked up to her. “You are beautiful, you know that?”
“Enough with the flattery. Let’s go.”
He laughed and walked her out the door. He never could get enough of her sense of humor. If you didn’t know Olivia Benson, her sense of humor could actually make you believe she was insulting you or being a bitch. But Elliot knew her probably better then he knew himself. Her sarcasm was her humor.
Elliot’s car stopped in front of Le Bernardin. Once Olivia saw the sign she gasped. “Elliot, Le Bernardin? This restaurant is a good 100 bucks a person. You didn’t seriously get reservations did you?”
“Yes I did.”
“Are you nuts? Look I get that you care about me, you will miss me, blah, blah, blah but spending your pay check on dinner is not showing me affection.”
Elliot laughed at her and shook his head as he pulled up to the valet. He got out of the car and walked Olivia up to the door. “Come on star.”
“Elliot, look at me. I am not dressed for this kind of restaurant. Seriously let’s just go get a burger at Felipe’s and then go home.”
“That’s why I came with back up. You have a little gift at our table.”
“Elliot Stabler what did you do?”
“You will see Olivia Benson.”
She shook her head. “You have lost your mind, you know that?”
“Maybe, now get. We’re going to be late.”
Once they got escorted to their table, Elliot hands her a beautifully wrapped box. Olivia laughs, takes it from him and whispers ‘thank you.’ She walks to the restroom and leaves Elliot to worry about the dress fitting her. He saw her size and picked it out himself. As he sat and waited, the sweat in his palms grew. Never has Elliot ever felt this way about anyone in his entire life. Sure he cared about Kathy, but he has never felt this way about her. It was different with Olivia.
He was jostled from his thoughts when a beautiful Olivia Benson made her way to the table wearing the beautiful black velvet dress he got for her. It was ankle length, had slits up to her thighs on each side, and was v neck with spaghetti straps. As Olivia got closer, she shook her head and laughed. The dress fit her perfectly. The black shoes did as well.
“Elliot Stabler, where in the hell did you get this? And how on earth did you know my size?”
“Wow! You look…amazing. But to answer your questions, I was thinking I wanted to take you out on the town sort-of-speak and I knew your size by simply looking in your closet.”
She sat down and laughed, “Well, you did a very good job but once again you are spending way too much money on someone who isn’t going to be here much longer.”
She knew right after she said it that it probably was not the best thing to say. He looked at her, his eye brows coming together. “Now how the hell is that funny Liv? Please stop saying that crap to me?”
“I’m sorry Elliot. But to me, it’s all…it’s still a bit numb. I guess joking about it makes it…better somehow. Sorry. I won’t do it again. Feel better?”
“No, but forget it. Let’s just enjoy dinner and then we can carry on to the next event.”
Olivia opened up her napkin and placed it on her lap, “And what other event is that?”
“You’ll see. Now don’t worry about it and enjoy dinner.”
After they order and were served their second course, Olivia suddenly got an epiphany. She sipped her virgin drink and looked at him. “You know it occurred to me just now that this, my friend, is a date.”
Elliot laughed and replied, “And what if it is?”
“Well, how does your wife feel about that?”
“Kathy and I may still be married by law Liv but we are just not in love with each other anymore. You know I don’t live with her anymore. So what if I want to take a beautiful woman out on a date.”
“You are…”
“Charming, handsome, romantic.”
“Delusional.”
They both laughed and carried on with their meal. Before they were about to leave and after Elliot paid the bill, he took Olivia’s hands and whispered, “One dance?”
The request sent shivers down Olivia’s spin. No man could make her so worked up with just a damn simple question. “I thought you wanted to go to your next surprise that you refuse to tell me?”
“One dance, that’s all.”
“Okay, lead the way Charming.”
The music, as soon as they hit the dance floor, changed to Olivia’s favorite singer and coincidently her favorite song. Frank Sinatra’s “Come Rain or Come Shine.”
I’m gonna love you like nobody’s loved you,
come rain or come shine.
Olivia held on to Elliot like her life depended on it. She rested her head on his shoulders and closed her eyes as he swayed them back and forth. Nothing could ever change the fact that she loved this man. Not even death itself.
High as a mountain and deep as a river,
come rain or come shine.
I guess when you met me,
it was just one of those things.
But don’t you ever bet me
’Cause I’m gonna be true if you let me.
Olivia wished she would let herself love him. Let him love her. But it was not so simple. It was easier for her to be alone knowing she was dying. But now that he knows, now that he is here trying to pry his way into her heart, she wants so bad to let him.
You’re gonna love me like nobody’s loved
me, come rain or come shine.
We’ll be happy together, unhappy together.
Now won’t that be just fine.
The days may be cloudy or sunny.
He tilted up her chin and looked into her eyes. He noticed the tears that she had shed. He wiped them away and kissed her cheek. He put his hands to the back of her neck and placed her head on his chest as his other hand went to her back to push her closer to his frame.
We’re in or we’re out of the money.
But I’m with you always; I’m with you, rain or shine!
Days may be cloudy or sunny.
We’re in or we’re out of the money.
I’m with you, baby, I’m with you, rain or shine!
As the song ended, Elliot lifted Olivia’s head and looked into her eyes once again. He wanted to badly to kiss her. He knew, however, that it was not the right time. He wanted the moment to be perfect and they still had so much to do.
“You okay?”
“Yeah, thanks.”
“Okay well we still have one more event and then you can go back to veging on the couch.”
She laughed and let him lead the way out. They got into the car and Elliot made his way to Central Park. He pulled out a blanket from the trunk and what looked like a pair of binoculars. He took her hand and led her to a grassy area. He laid down a blanket, the binoculars and took off his coat to wrap around Olivia. It was a bit chilly even though it was getting closer to spring. He set her down on the blanket, “Damn! I forgot something. Let me run back to the car really quick. You okay with staying here by yourself for a sec?”
“Elliot, I was a cop for almost ten years. I think I will be fine.”
He laughed and ran back to the car. After a few minutes, he came back with two small pillows and with a very large smile on his face. “Found them.”
“And why, pray tell, do we need pillows? Are you hoping to get lucky in the park Stabler?”
“Ha ha, funny Benson. If I wanted to get lucky it sure as hell wouldn’t be in front of New York’s population. Now your apartment…that would be my location to get lucky. This is so it’s more comfortable to look up at the sky.”
“Okay, I’ll bite. Why do we need to look at the sky? The sunset’s easier seen looking into the horizon, not that New York has much of a horizon.”
“We are not here to look at the sunset, although that is an added bonus.”
“You’re not going to tell me are you?”
“Nope, now come on the blanket and lay down.”
She laughed and did as he asked. As soon as they were both side by side, he took her hand in his and kissed it. She looked at him and wondered what he was up to. Not knowing was killing her. Olivia Benson was not good with surprises. They lie there waiting for the sun to go down all the while looking in to each other’s eyes.
“The sun is almost down.”
“Very observant Benson.”
“Shut up smart ass. Now tell me what to look for.”
“You just told me to shut up.”
“Okay now you may speak.”
He laughed and kissed her hand. “Wait a little while.”
The sun was completely down and Olivia was getting anxious. She wasn’t sure what to expect. Elliot pulled out an envelope from his back pocket and handed it to her. “Open it.”
“Okay…” She was skeptical. As soon as she opened it, she began to tear up. “You named a star after me?”
“Yeah, It’s that bright one to the right of the moon.” Olivia’s eyes followed his finger pointed in the direction of the star.
“Elliot, I don’t know what to say.”
“You don’t have to say anything. Now when I think of you, all I have to do is look up in the sky. It’s more for me then you I guess, but I thought it was…sweet.”
“It was. Thank you.”
Elliot turned to her and looked into her eyes. “I wish I knew what was roaming in that head of yours Benson.”
Olivia laughed, “My mother used to tell me the same thing.”
He laughed and pulled her closer to him. “Can I ask you something?”
“Depends, am I going to like it?”
“You may. It’s up to you.”
“Okay, shoot.”
“Can I kiss you?”
Olivia looked at him with doubt. “Elliot, even though we had a really great night, I am not sure that’s such a…”
Elliot cut her off when his lips were placed on hers. She was shocked at first but then allowed his lips to caress her into submission. She began to massage his tongue with hers and wrapped her arms around his mid section. She never knew a kiss could feel this good. After what felt like forever, the two pulled apart.
“Wow…that was amazing.”
Both were a bit out of breath. “I have that effect on women.”
Olivia laughed and smacked him on the chest. “Okay Romeo, take me home.”
“Is that an invitation Benson?”
“You wish Stabler. Seriously, I need to take my medication and get some sleep. I’m seriously exhausted.”
He shook his head and whispered sure. They got all of their things and made their way to Olivia’s apartment. Nothing could ever take away this day. Elliot would remember it till the day he died.
Once Olivia was situated at her apartment, Elliot was about to leave. “Thank you Elliot, for everything tonight. I know it must have cost you a lot of money.”
“You are worth it. I just wish I could afford that doctor in California.”
“Don’t okay. Today was perfect. Let’s not spoil it.”
Elliot nodded in agreement and asked, “Can I stay?”
“Elliot, you really should go home and get some rest. I promise I will be here when you get back.”
“Liv, please?”
“I really need to be alone right now okay. Call me when you get home?”
He nodded and kissed her softly on the lips. “Goodnight Stardust.”
“Stardust?”
“That’s my favorite Frank song. It just fit tonight’s theme.”
She laughed and kissed him again. “Goodnight Elliot.” She closed the door behind him and whispered ‘I love you.’
Le Bernardin is an actual 5 star restaurant in Manhattan. I looked that up peoples! LOL! I even looked up the pricing. It is $105 a person for a 3 course meal. Crazy I know! But I thought it would be perfect. I hope you liked it and please leave reviews.
Part 4: Stardust
Not much was said about Olivia’s condition. Elliot didn’t want to make it worse then it had to be for her. Being with her was number one priority. Letting her know how much she will be missed was his goal. All he had to do was get her to accept what he was planning. Now that was the real challenge.
“Liv, stop asking questions and just say yes.”
“Elliot, I seriously don’t want to go anywhere. Just let me sit here with my tea, watch some TV and lounge.”
“Nope. Please Liv. I planned all of this out in advance.”
“Elliot, it has been 3 months since the accident and you have tried to spend every waking hour with me. Not sure Kathy appreciates that.”
Elliot walked over to where Olivia sat on her love seat, took the tea out of her hand and sat it down on the coffee table. He took her hands in his and looked into her eyes.
“Please. It’s just for a few hours, then you can come back here and make like a vegetable.”
Olivia laughed and shook her head. “You are one stubborn man Stabler.”
“Yes I am and you still have not answered my question.”
Olivia bent her head back and closed her eyes, “Fine, but only for a few hours.”
“Until sundown.”
“Sundown! Elliot that’s like 4 hours from now!”
“You already said yes so get up and get dressed.”
She let go of his hands and stood up slowly. She was leisurely getting dizzy and light headed, symptoms she did not like one bit. Everything had to be done step by step. It took her twice as long and hot showers were no longer an option. They had to be warm otherwise she would black out. She slowly made her way into her closet, found a shirt and pair of jeans and then grabbed her coat. Her eye sight was dimming also. It was so hard to focus but she was not so bad that she didn’t need glasses. But no more fretting. She finished getting ready and walked into the living room where Elliot sat and waited for her.
“Okay, let’s go.”
Elliot turned his head and walked up to her. “You are beautiful, you know that?”
“Enough with the flattery. Let’s go.”
He laughed and walked her out the door. He never could get enough of her sense of humor. If you didn’t know Olivia Benson, her sense of humor could actually make you believe she was insulting you or being a bitch. But Elliot knew her probably better then he knew himself. Her sarcasm was her humor.
Elliot’s car stopped in front of Le Bernardin. Once Olivia saw the sign she gasped. “Elliot, Le Bernardin? This restaurant is a good 100 bucks a person. You didn’t seriously get reservations did you?”
“Yes I did.”
“Are you nuts? Look I get that you care about me, you will miss me, blah, blah, blah but spending your pay check on dinner is not showing me affection.”
Elliot laughed at her and shook his head as he pulled up to the valet. He got out of the car and walked Olivia up to the door. “Come on star.”
“Elliot, look at me. I am not dressed for this kind of restaurant. Seriously let’s just go get a burger at Felipe’s and then go home.”
“That’s why I came with back up. You have a little gift at our table.”
“Elliot Stabler what did you do?”
“You will see Olivia Benson.”
She shook her head. “You have lost your mind, you know that?”
“Maybe, now get. We’re going to be late.”
Once they got escorted to their table, Elliot hands her a beautifully wrapped box. Olivia laughs, takes it from him and whispers ‘thank you.’ She walks to the restroom and leaves Elliot to worry about the dress fitting her. He saw her size and picked it out himself. As he sat and waited, the sweat in his palms grew. Never has Elliot ever felt this way about anyone in his entire life. Sure he cared about Kathy, but he has never felt this way about her. It was different with Olivia.
He was jostled from his thoughts when a beautiful Olivia Benson made her way to the table wearing the beautiful black velvet dress he got for her. It was ankle length, had slits up to her thighs on each side, and was v neck with spaghetti straps. As Olivia got closer, she shook her head and laughed. The dress fit her perfectly. The black shoes did as well.
“Elliot Stabler, where in the hell did you get this? And how on earth did you know my size?”
“Wow! You look…amazing. But to answer your questions, I was thinking I wanted to take you out on the town sort-of-speak and I knew your size by simply looking in your closet.”
She sat down and laughed, “Well, you did a very good job but once again you are spending way too much money on someone who isn’t going to be here much longer.”
She knew right after she said it that it probably was not the best thing to say. He looked at her, his eye brows coming together. “Now how the hell is that funny Liv? Please stop saying that crap to me?”
“I’m sorry Elliot. But to me, it’s all…it’s still a bit numb. I guess joking about it makes it…better somehow. Sorry. I won’t do it again. Feel better?”
“No, but forget it. Let’s just enjoy dinner and then we can carry on to the next event.”
Olivia opened up her napkin and placed it on her lap, “And what other event is that?”
“You’ll see. Now don’t worry about it and enjoy dinner.”
After they order and were served their second course, Olivia suddenly got an epiphany. She sipped her virgin drink and looked at him. “You know it occurred to me just now that this, my friend, is a date.”
Elliot laughed and replied, “And what if it is?”
“Well, how does your wife feel about that?”
“Kathy and I may still be married by law Liv but we are just not in love with each other anymore. You know I don’t live with her anymore. So what if I want to take a beautiful woman out on a date.”
“You are…”
“Charming, handsome, romantic.”
“Delusional.”
They both laughed and carried on with their meal. Before they were about to leave and after Elliot paid the bill, he took Olivia’s hands and whispered, “One dance?”
The request sent shivers down Olivia’s spin. No man could make her so worked up with just a damn simple question. “I thought you wanted to go to your next surprise that you refuse to tell me?”
“One dance, that’s all.”
“Okay, lead the way Charming.”
The music, as soon as they hit the dance floor, changed to Olivia’s favorite singer and coincidently her favorite song. Frank Sinatra’s “Come Rain or Come Shine.”
I’m gonna love you like nobody’s loved you,
come rain or come shine.
Olivia held on to Elliot like her life depended on it. She rested her head on his shoulders and closed her eyes as he swayed them back and forth. Nothing could ever change the fact that she loved this man. Not even death itself.
High as a mountain and deep as a river,
come rain or come shine.
I guess when you met me,
it was just one of those things.
But don’t you ever bet me
’Cause I’m gonna be true if you let me.
Olivia wished she would let herself love him. Let him love her. But it was not so simple. It was easier for her to be alone knowing she was dying. But now that he knows, now that he is here trying to pry his way into her heart, she wants so bad to let him.
You’re gonna love me like nobody’s loved
me, come rain or come shine.
We’ll be happy together, unhappy together.
Now won’t that be just fine.
The days may be cloudy or sunny.
He tilted up her chin and looked into her eyes. He noticed the tears that she had shed. He wiped them away and kissed her cheek. He put his hands to the back of her neck and placed her head on his chest as his other hand went to her back to push her closer to his frame.
We’re in or we’re out of the money.
But I’m with you always; I’m with you, rain or shine!
Days may be cloudy or sunny.
We’re in or we’re out of the money.
I’m with you, baby, I’m with you, rain or shine!
As the song ended, Elliot lifted Olivia’s head and looked into her eyes once again. He wanted to badly to kiss her. He knew, however, that it was not the right time. He wanted the moment to be perfect and they still had so much to do.
“You okay?”
“Yeah, thanks.”
“Okay well we still have one more event and then you can go back to veging on the couch.”
She laughed and let him lead the way out. They got into the car and Elliot made his way to Central Park. He pulled out a blanket from the trunk and what looked like a pair of binoculars. He took her hand and led her to a grassy area. He laid down a blanket, the binoculars and took off his coat to wrap around Olivia. It was a bit chilly even though it was getting closer to spring. He set her down on the blanket, “Damn! I forgot something. Let me run back to the car really quick. You okay with staying here by yourself for a sec?”
“Elliot, I was a cop for almost ten years. I think I will be fine.”
He laughed and ran back to the car. After a few minutes, he came back with two small pillows and with a very large smile on his face. “Found them.”
“And why, pray tell, do we need pillows? Are you hoping to get lucky in the park Stabler?”
“Ha ha, funny Benson. If I wanted to get lucky it sure as hell wouldn’t be in front of New York’s population. Now your apartment…that would be my location to get lucky. This is so it’s more comfortable to look up at the sky.”
“Okay, I’ll bite. Why do we need to look at the sky? The sunset’s easier seen looking into the horizon, not that New York has much of a horizon.”
“We are not here to look at the sunset, although that is an added bonus.”
“You’re not going to tell me are you?”
“Nope, now come on the blanket and lay down.”
She laughed and did as he asked. As soon as they were both side by side, he took her hand in his and kissed it. She looked at him and wondered what he was up to. Not knowing was killing her. Olivia Benson was not good with surprises. They lie there waiting for the sun to go down all the while looking in to each other’s eyes.
“The sun is almost down.”
“Very observant Benson.”
“Shut up smart ass. Now tell me what to look for.”
“You just told me to shut up.”
“Okay now you may speak.”
He laughed and kissed her hand. “Wait a little while.”
The sun was completely down and Olivia was getting anxious. She wasn’t sure what to expect. Elliot pulled out an envelope from his back pocket and handed it to her. “Open it.”
“Okay…” She was skeptical. As soon as she opened it, she began to tear up. “You named a star after me?”
“Yeah, It’s that bright one to the right of the moon.” Olivia’s eyes followed his finger pointed in the direction of the star.
“Elliot, I don’t know what to say.”
“You don’t have to say anything. Now when I think of you, all I have to do is look up in the sky. It’s more for me then you I guess, but I thought it was…sweet.”
“It was. Thank you.”
Elliot turned to her and looked into her eyes. “I wish I knew what was roaming in that head of yours Benson.”
Olivia laughed, “My mother used to tell me the same thing.”
He laughed and pulled her closer to him. “Can I ask you something?”
“Depends, am I going to like it?”
“You may. It’s up to you.”
“Okay, shoot.”
“Can I kiss you?”
Olivia looked at him with doubt. “Elliot, even though we had a really great night, I am not sure that’s such a…”
Elliot cut her off when his lips were placed on hers. She was shocked at first but then allowed his lips to caress her into submission. She began to massage his tongue with hers and wrapped her arms around his mid section. She never knew a kiss could feel this good. After what felt like forever, the two pulled apart.
“Wow…that was amazing.”
Both were a bit out of breath. “I have that effect on women.”
Olivia laughed and smacked him on the chest. “Okay Romeo, take me home.”
“Is that an invitation Benson?”
“You wish Stabler. Seriously, I need to take my medication and get some sleep. I’m seriously exhausted.”
He shook his head and whispered sure. They got all of their things and made their way to Olivia’s apartment. Nothing could ever take away this day. Elliot would remember it till the day he died.
Once Olivia was situated at her apartment, Elliot was about to leave. “Thank you Elliot, for everything tonight. I know it must have cost you a lot of money.”
“You are worth it. I just wish I could afford that doctor in California.”
“Don’t okay. Today was perfect. Let’s not spoil it.”
Elliot nodded in agreement and asked, “Can I stay?”
“Elliot, you really should go home and get some rest. I promise I will be here when you get back.”
“Liv, please?”
“I really need to be alone right now okay. Call me when you get home?”
He nodded and kissed her softly on the lips. “Goodnight Stardust.”
“Stardust?”
“That’s my favorite Frank song. It just fit tonight’s theme.”
She laughed and kissed him again. “Goodnight Elliot.” She closed the door behind him and whispered ‘I love you.’
Le Bernardin is an actual 5 star restaurant in Manhattan. I looked that up peoples! LOL! I even looked up the pricing. It is $105 a person for a 3 course meal. Crazy I know! But I thought it would be perfect. I hope you liked it and please leave reviews.
That was sooooooooo good. Please, continue. {kat} 
omfg that was soo beeping good but like i said on yahoo DON'T MAKE LIV DIE I WILL CRY WAAAAAAAAA
QUOTE (ScarlettVonUttenburg @ Nov 23 2007, 10:46 AM)
On no! What did you do!? I just can't take the Liv death. It's like EO death. Okay...I'm gonna deal...just fix it mmkay! Nice update! Keep going!
Nice update! Keep going!NO! NO! NO! Are you absolutely crazy?
Olivia can't die!
That can't happen it just can't
What about us who believe in Elliot and Olivia.
I love the story but kill somebody else
QUOTE (Mary82 @ Dec 15 2007, 04:50 PM)
This chapter is dedicated to all of the people who gave me great reviews. This section is also inspired by the Likin Park song "Leave Out All the Rest." I thought it fit perfectly with the way Olivia was feeling.
Part 3: Leave Out All the Rest
The ride was silent at first. Olivia wanted to tell Elliot what the doctor had told her but she was afraid. She didn't want him to treat her any different then he did before the accident. If only she knew what to do say in order to get him to stop looking back and forth between her and the traffic. He did it about ten times before she spoke up.
"What?"
"What?"
"Why do you keep looking at me?"
"What happened Liv?"
Olivia turned her attention back onto the traffic. She was not at all prepared for Elliot's intuition to kick in. All she wanted to do was go home, make a cup of tea, sit in silence and think about what she wanted to do before her life ended.
"I was in a car accident Elliot. What more do you want me to say?"
"I meant what did the doctor say?"
"None of your business."
"Liv…"
"It's nothing Elliot."
"Liv…talk to me."
In order to drown out all of the conversation, Olivia reached out to the radio and pushed the on button. She changed it to her favorite radio station and sighed a relief when she heard commercials. She never thought cleanser could make her feel so relieved. Then, the music came on. The song hit her like a ton of bricks. She recognized it. Linkin Park is her favorite band.
Dreamed I was missing
You were so scared
But no one would listen
Cause no one else cared
After my dreaming
I woke with this fear
What am I leaving
When I'm done here
So if you're asking me
I want you to know
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed
And don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest
It was like God was sending her a message. She wanted to reach out and turn it off but for some reason her arms were not getting the signal from her brain. It was as if the song was taking over her bodily functions. She leaned back, looked out the window and silent tears began to seep through her eyes.
Don't be afraid
I've taking my beating
I've shared what I've been
I'm strong on the surface
Not all the way through
I've never been perfect
But neither have you
So if you're asking me
I want you to know
When my time comes
She never thought her time would come so soon. What did she do to deserve such a short life? Was it punishment for her father's actions?
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed
Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest
Forgetting
All the hurt inside
You've learned to hide so well
I've learned to hide so much. The man I have given my heart to is sitting right next to me and I can't even tell him. I can't tell him how much I love him, how much I would have given to just be able to hear him breathing next to me in bed, to hear his heart beating after making love, to hear him whisper my name in the dark.
Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed
Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest
Forgetting
All the hurt inside
You've learned to hide so well
Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are
I can't be who you are
I wish I could give him all of me but now I can't. I can't hurt him. I can't.
"Can't what?"
"Huh?"
"You said I can't hurt him. I can't. Can't hurt who Liv?"
"Look Elliot I appreciate you helping me, I do, but don't okay?"
Elliot just groaned, turned off the radio and continued to drive in silence. She knew that he knew something was up. She also knew his stubbornness. He was not going to let this go.
As soon as Elliot pulled into her drive way, he unbuckled his seat belt and turned off the engine. He sat in silence for a few seconds before he said, "You scared the crap out of me."
"What? Why?"
When he turned to her, Olivia could see the worry in his eyes. "Don't you know how much you mean to me? Olivia, you're my best friend, my partner. You know things about me that Kathy will never understand and will never hear. I can tell you things that I have never been able to tell anyone. You almost died. Do you have any idea what that would have done to me?"
I can't look at him. I turned to the window and sighed. "You would have shed a few tears and moved on with your life."
Olivia felt his hand on her arm. "I would have been heart broken Olivia. You aren't some random person in my life. You know that right?"
"I know you care about me Elliot. But I am just your friend, nothing more."
"You're more then that Liv."
She turned to look into his eyes and said, "No Elliot. No I'm not."
She let go of his arm and left the car. Why was he doing this to her? It was so much easier when she thought he was just her friend. That way she wasn't hurting anyone. Now, Elliot was practically declaring his feelings for her. Just as she reached her door, she could hear Elliot following her. She unlocked her door and made her way inside. Elliot snuck his way in before she got a chance to open the door.
"What are you doing? Go home Elliot."
"No. Not until you understand what I am trying to say."
"I do understand. You care about me. I get it. Now can you please go? I'm tired."
"It's more then just caring about you Liv."
"You know I liked you better when you didn't talk about your feelings."
Elliot laughed and went to engulf her in a hug. He kissed her head and pulled her closer to him. As he was holding her, Olivia closed her eyes and sighed. She loved the way he held her and the best part was that two of her dreams came true. She could hear his heart beat and his breathing.
Still holding her, Elliot said, "I love you Liv."
She pulled back. "What? Elliot…"
"I do. I can't explain why or how Liv. I just…do. When I heard about the accident, I was so worried."
"Of course you were Elliot. Your wife and unborn child were in danger."
"Why do you do that?"
"Do what? Make sense?"
"No right yourself off like you aren't important. You were in that car to Liv."
"So? Elliot I'm not leaving behind anything but my job. What do I care what happens to me."
"I care!"
He took a breather, took off his jacket, set it on the back of her couch and leaned against the back of it with his arms crossed across his chest.
"I can't understand why you are having such a hard time imagining that someone cares about you."
"It's not for you to understand but for you to accept. This is who I am. It's how I grew up El. Before I met you, no one in my life gave a crap what happened to me. My mother could care less if I ever came back home. In fact, that may have been a blessing for her. I never had any family or friends give three shits about me so tell me how I am supposed to just accept it when…"
"When what?"
"Nothing."
"No tell me. Liv please. I need to know."
"Need to know what?! God you are so…"
"Charming."
"Annoying and nosy!"
"That to. Tell me Liv."
"What do you want me to say Elliot?!"
He walked over to her, looked into her eyes and whispered, "Tell me what the doctor said Liv."
"FINE! HE TOLD ME I'M DYING ELLIOT! IS THAT WHAT YOU WANTED TO HEAR?!" She turned away from him and leaned against the wall. Her eyes were planted on the carpet in her apartment. She never knew it could be so appealing.
Elliot looked at her and tried to decide if she was saying this to get him to shut up or if she was telling the truth.
"Liv, what did he say?"
She took a moment to breath in and out. Her head was throbbing, her body ached and all she wanted to do was sleep. She turned back to him and looked down.
"He said that my head was hit with such force that I am developing fluid in my brain. There is no way to operate and so I'm dying."
"How…how long?"
"6 months at the most. I still have to do some research on the symptoms."
Elliot felt tears slip from his eyes. He walked closer to her and tried to gather her up in his arms before she stopped him.
"No don't. I don't need or want your sympathy. Just go."
"This isn't for you. This is for me. Please."
She sighed and let him come to her. He took her in his arms and cried. He didn't sob because he knew that would only hurt the both of them. He couldn't think. It was as if his entire thoughts and feelings went numb.
"Are you tired?"
"Yes."
"Let me hold you please?"
"El…"
"Please?"
She sighed once more and said, "Okay. Just let me get changed."
She walked into her room, changed into flannel cotton pants and a t-shirt and sat on the edge of her bed in silence before she heard a knock at the door. She couldn't believe she was letting him do this. She was letting him in and in the end, all it was going to do was cause her more pain then happiness.
"It's open El."
He walked in with his jeans and t-shirt still on. She lay down on the side she always sleeps on and waited for him to lay next to her. She couldn't take her eyes off of him. He mesmerized her in a way no one else could. She felt his arms wrap around her waist and she maneuvered herself so she was lying on his chest. She fell asleep to the sound of his heart beat and the movement of his chest as it contracted with every breath he took.
Okay there it is. I hope you enjoyed it and please leave reviews. I love reading all of them.
Part 3: Leave Out All the Rest
The ride was silent at first. Olivia wanted to tell Elliot what the doctor had told her but she was afraid. She didn't want him to treat her any different then he did before the accident. If only she knew what to do say in order to get him to stop looking back and forth between her and the traffic. He did it about ten times before she spoke up.
"What?"
"What?"
"Why do you keep looking at me?"
"What happened Liv?"
Olivia turned her attention back onto the traffic. She was not at all prepared for Elliot's intuition to kick in. All she wanted to do was go home, make a cup of tea, sit in silence and think about what she wanted to do before her life ended.
"I was in a car accident Elliot. What more do you want me to say?"
"I meant what did the doctor say?"
"None of your business."
"Liv…"
"It's nothing Elliot."
"Liv…talk to me."
In order to drown out all of the conversation, Olivia reached out to the radio and pushed the on button. She changed it to her favorite radio station and sighed a relief when she heard commercials. She never thought cleanser could make her feel so relieved. Then, the music came on. The song hit her like a ton of bricks. She recognized it. Linkin Park is her favorite band.
Dreamed I was missing
You were so scared
But no one would listen
Cause no one else cared
After my dreaming
I woke with this fear
What am I leaving
When I'm done here
So if you're asking me
I want you to know
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed
And don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest
It was like God was sending her a message. She wanted to reach out and turn it off but for some reason her arms were not getting the signal from her brain. It was as if the song was taking over her bodily functions. She leaned back, looked out the window and silent tears began to seep through her eyes.
Don't be afraid
I've taking my beating
I've shared what I've been
I'm strong on the surface
Not all the way through
I've never been perfect
But neither have you
So if you're asking me
I want you to know
When my time comes
She never thought her time would come so soon. What did she do to deserve such a short life? Was it punishment for her father's actions?
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed
Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest
Forgetting
All the hurt inside
You've learned to hide so well
I've learned to hide so much. The man I have given my heart to is sitting right next to me and I can't even tell him. I can't tell him how much I love him, how much I would have given to just be able to hear him breathing next to me in bed, to hear his heart beating after making love, to hear him whisper my name in the dark.
Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed
Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest
Forgetting
All the hurt inside
You've learned to hide so well
Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are
I can't be who you are
I wish I could give him all of me but now I can't. I can't hurt him. I can't.
"Can't what?"
"Huh?"
"You said I can't hurt him. I can't. Can't hurt who Liv?"
"Look Elliot I appreciate you helping me, I do, but don't okay?"
Elliot just groaned, turned off the radio and continued to drive in silence. She knew that he knew something was up. She also knew his stubbornness. He was not going to let this go.
As soon as Elliot pulled into her drive way, he unbuckled his seat belt and turned off the engine. He sat in silence for a few seconds before he said, "You scared the crap out of me."
"What? Why?"
When he turned to her, Olivia could see the worry in his eyes. "Don't you know how much you mean to me? Olivia, you're my best friend, my partner. You know things about me that Kathy will never understand and will never hear. I can tell you things that I have never been able to tell anyone. You almost died. Do you have any idea what that would have done to me?"
I can't look at him. I turned to the window and sighed. "You would have shed a few tears and moved on with your life."
Olivia felt his hand on her arm. "I would have been heart broken Olivia. You aren't some random person in my life. You know that right?"
"I know you care about me Elliot. But I am just your friend, nothing more."
"You're more then that Liv."
She turned to look into his eyes and said, "No Elliot. No I'm not."
She let go of his arm and left the car. Why was he doing this to her? It was so much easier when she thought he was just her friend. That way she wasn't hurting anyone. Now, Elliot was practically declaring his feelings for her. Just as she reached her door, she could hear Elliot following her. She unlocked her door and made her way inside. Elliot snuck his way in before she got a chance to open the door.
"What are you doing? Go home Elliot."
"No. Not until you understand what I am trying to say."
"I do understand. You care about me. I get it. Now can you please go? I'm tired."
"It's more then just caring about you Liv."
"You know I liked you better when you didn't talk about your feelings."
Elliot laughed and went to engulf her in a hug. He kissed her head and pulled her closer to him. As he was holding her, Olivia closed her eyes and sighed. She loved the way he held her and the best part was that two of her dreams came true. She could hear his heart beat and his breathing.
Still holding her, Elliot said, "I love you Liv."
She pulled back. "What? Elliot…"
"I do. I can't explain why or how Liv. I just…do. When I heard about the accident, I was so worried."
"Of course you were Elliot. Your wife and unborn child were in danger."
"Why do you do that?"
"Do what? Make sense?"
"No right yourself off like you aren't important. You were in that car to Liv."
"So? Elliot I'm not leaving behind anything but my job. What do I care what happens to me."
"I care!"
He took a breather, took off his jacket, set it on the back of her couch and leaned against the back of it with his arms crossed across his chest.
"I can't understand why you are having such a hard time imagining that someone cares about you."
"It's not for you to understand but for you to accept. This is who I am. It's how I grew up El. Before I met you, no one in my life gave a crap what happened to me. My mother could care less if I ever came back home. In fact, that may have been a blessing for her. I never had any family or friends give three shits about me so tell me how I am supposed to just accept it when…"
"When what?"
"Nothing."
"No tell me. Liv please. I need to know."
"Need to know what?! God you are so…"
"Charming."
"Annoying and nosy!"
"That to. Tell me Liv."
"What do you want me to say Elliot?!"
He walked over to her, looked into her eyes and whispered, "Tell me what the doctor said Liv."
"FINE! HE TOLD ME I'M DYING ELLIOT! IS THAT WHAT YOU WANTED TO HEAR?!" She turned away from him and leaned against the wall. Her eyes were planted on the carpet in her apartment. She never knew it could be so appealing.
Elliot looked at her and tried to decide if she was saying this to get him to shut up or if she was telling the truth.
"Liv, what did he say?"
She took a moment to breath in and out. Her head was throbbing, her body ached and all she wanted to do was sleep. She turned back to him and looked down.
"He said that my head was hit with such force that I am developing fluid in my brain. There is no way to operate and so I'm dying."
"How…how long?"
"6 months at the most. I still have to do some research on the symptoms."
Elliot felt tears slip from his eyes. He walked closer to her and tried to gather her up in his arms before she stopped him.
"No don't. I don't need or want your sympathy. Just go."
"This isn't for you. This is for me. Please."
She sighed and let him come to her. He took her in his arms and cried. He didn't sob because he knew that would only hurt the both of them. He couldn't think. It was as if his entire thoughts and feelings went numb.
"Are you tired?"
"Yes."
"Let me hold you please?"
"El…"
"Please?"
She sighed once more and said, "Okay. Just let me get changed."
She walked into her room, changed into flannel cotton pants and a t-shirt and sat on the edge of her bed in silence before she heard a knock at the door. She couldn't believe she was letting him do this. She was letting him in and in the end, all it was going to do was cause her more pain then happiness.
"It's open El."
He walked in with his jeans and t-shirt still on. She lay down on the side she always sleeps on and waited for him to lay next to her. She couldn't take her eyes off of him. He mesmerized her in a way no one else could. She felt his arms wrap around her waist and she maneuvered herself so she was lying on his chest. She fell asleep to the sound of his heart beat and the movement of his chest as it contracted with every breath he took.
Okay there it is. I hope you enjoyed it and please leave reviews. I love reading all of them.
Ok that was totally awesome. Off the hook I loved it. You got me some drops of water falling from my eyes
QUOTE (StablerBensonShipper17 @ Dec 31 2007, 06:00 PM)
That was sooooooooo good. Please, continue. {kat}
That was crazy good!
Loving it
QUOTE (Aliecia @ Dec 31 2007, 08:05 PM)
NO! NO! NO! Are you absolutely crazy?
Olivia can't die!
That can't happen it just can't
What about us who believe in Elliot and Olivia.
I love the story but kill somebody else
Olivia can't die!
That can't happen it just can't
What about us who believe in Elliot and Olivia.
I love the story but kill somebody else
Yeah! Like Dani Beck. Kill her off. *snickers, and runs off*
QUOTE (StablerBensonShipper17 @ Jan 1 2008, 04:40 PM)
Yeah! Like Dani Beck. Kill her off. *snickers, and runs off*
oh good gawd! lol then dont go read my story! lol although i think you have! cuz um Dani does return in my story and uh...well we'll see! lol j/k
i guess you can help me destroy her!!muahahahahaha!
QUOTE (imsvu23 @ Jan 1 2008, 08:28 PM)
oh good gawd! lol then dont go read my story! lol although i think you have! cuz um Dani does return in my story and uh...well we'll see! lol j/k
i guess you can help me destroy her!!muahahahahaha!
i guess you can help me destroy her!!muahahahahaha!
*yes!* haha.. *does evil laugh with you* Lol, I'm like really happy!!! New episode of SVU on TONIGHT! only 34 more mins.
QUOTE (StablerBensonShipper17 @ Jan 1 2008, 10:26 PM)
*yes!* haha.. *does evil laugh with you* Lol, I'm like really happy!!! New episode of SVU on TONIGHT! only 34 more mins.
lol youre funny!
yess now its only like 29 more minutes!!! AHHHHHHHH
Part 5: Air Bound
After another night of talking and relaxing on her couch, she fell asleep in his arms. This was a recurring scene between them. He would bring food that hopefully she could get down, talk a little, watch TV and fall asleep holding each other. He could feel her moving and breathing against him. As she slept, he played with her hair and kissed the skin on her shoulder. He wanted to marry this woman, wanted her to have his child and go to bed each night to the feel of her against him.
She was getting worse. All Elliot had to do was look her in the eyes and he could see that she was in pain. After talking to the staff in California, he discovered that it would cost $250,000 total for the surgery and recovery plus any additional care and medical she will need afterwards. He was never one to roll over and submit to anything or anyone and this was not going to be one of those times. He did a lot of research and found ways, legal ways, of receiving donations. He would be damned if he was going to loose one of the most important people in his life.
He asked his church to pray for her and to please help him as much as they could and he asked for donations from the NYPD. After all she had done on the force, he was sure he would get a substantial amount of money. He didn’t care if Olivia got mad at him, and mad she would be. Olivia is not one to take hand outs nor have anyone know her personal business. By telling half the NYPD and his church, he knew he was airing out her personal situation and when she was well enough, she was going to kick his ass.
Her birthday was today and he had received a gift for himself and for her. He got the money and even a little more then he thought he would. It took a month but he got it. He bought both of them a plane ticket, made reservations for a hotel and already talked to the doctor in California. They were scheduled to be in San Diego tomorrow and Elliot was gaining the courage to tell her.
He felt her moving beside him and saw her slowly opening her eyes. He smiled when he saw her yawning. “Morning beautiful. Did you sleep well?”
“mmmhmmm. Did you?”
“I always do laying next to you.”
She laughed and smacked him on the chest. “You are getting cheesy in your old age.”
“Hey, I am not the one with a birthday today Benson so be careful who you call old.”
She looked at him confused. “I didn’t know it was my birthday.”
She yawned again and stretched a little. She still had her head resting on her pillow when he got off of the bed and began to put on his pants over his boxers. As he picked up his shirt, he noticed Olivia’s eyes on him. “See something you like.”
“Always.”
He laughed and kissed her softly on the lips. “I’m going to make some coffee. Are you up for tea?”
“I’ll try. Just don’t make it too hot.”
“I’ll make it as warm as I can.”
She stayed in bed and watched him walk into the kitchen. No matter how soon she has left, she was thanking God for allowing her to spend it like this, with the man she loved. Elliot would never know how much she loved him. Every smile, every eye glance, flex of his muscles, cocky comments, raise of his eye brows, deep breaths, and even angry spells he had made her weak in the knees.
After a few minutes and coffee grounds later, he came back in the room with two coffee cups, one with coffee and one with tea, and he was also holding an envelope. She laughed thinking that he had gotten her a birthday card. Little did she know what rested inside.
She sat up and took the mug from his hands and closed her eyes. “That smells good. Thank you.”
He smiled and kissed her on the forehead. “You are welcome birthday girl.”
“What’s in the envelope?”
“This is for you. Open it and find out Benson.”
She set her mug down and took the envelope from his hands. “Am I going to be able to read it El? My eye sights kind of going…”
“Trust me Liv. You will be able to read it.”
She breathed in deep and opened the envelope. As she pulled the card out, she could feel something bulky inside. She opened the card and gasped. Two tickets to San Diego, California resided inside.
“Elliot Stabler what did you do?”
He sat his coffee mug down on the side table, sat down next to her and anticipated her anger that he was sure would be directed his way. He took her hand in his and looked into her eyes.
“I raised enough money and even a bit more for your surgery in California. I already talked to the hospital at UCSD, made hotel reservations and talked to Cragen about using as much vacation time as I can. All we have to do is get on the plane, head over there and get ready.”
“And where, pray tell, did you get the money?”
“Donations from the NYPD and from members of my church.”
She shook her head and gave him the plane tickets. “Take these back, give the money back and cancel the reservations now.”
“No.”
“Elliot! You had no right to do what you did. I told you to let it go!”
“How can you expect me to sit here and watch you die?” Olivia turned from him. She refused to look at him. She was angry and Elliot knew it but too damn bad. “Look at me and answer my question.”
“Don’t talk to me like I am one of your children Elliot.”
“Well if you are going to act like a child then I am damn sure going to treat you like one! Why are you fighting me on this? You are getting on that plane and to that hospital even if I have to tie you up and drag your pretty ass all the way to California!”
She looked at him and he noticed tears falling from her eyes. “Why can’t you just let me go?”
He pulled her closer to him and kissed her on the head. “Because I love you and I need you. God Olivia I can’t just sit here and watch you die knowing that I could have done something. I can’t believe that you would think I could. Do you know me at all?”
She laughed and pulled away from him. “I guess not. But after this, I will never be able to show my face in that precinct.”
“Olivia, you are a great cop and a great person. People donated not because they felt sorry for you but because they know you and would do anything for their fellow officer.”
She nodded and leaned back into her pillow. She was getting nauseous and he could tell. “Do you need me to help you to the bathroom?”
“No I think I’m okay.” After a short while of silence, she asked, “When do we need to be to the airport?”
He breathed in deep. “We have to be there at around 3am. The plane leaves at 5. I tried to get a later time but they were all taken.”
“Okay.”
“Okay we are going or okay I am nuts?”
“Both.”
He sighed and kissed her on the lips. “I love you Olivia Benson.”
“It’s a bit too late to kiss my ass now Elliot but I love you to.”
He laughed and wrapped his arms around her. He loved her more then she would ever know. The way she smelled, the feel of her hair against his chest, they way she breathed on his body, the feel of her lips on his, the soft feel of her skin, and even the simple way she walked turned him on. He couldn’t imagine not falling asleep to her next to him and he was going to make damn sure he doesn’t have to. So California, here we come!
I hope that was a good chapter for you. I woke up at 5am because of an epiphany! LOL! I am psycho I know. Now I am going to go back to bed for a few hours and hope that you all liked it!
After another night of talking and relaxing on her couch, she fell asleep in his arms. This was a recurring scene between them. He would bring food that hopefully she could get down, talk a little, watch TV and fall asleep holding each other. He could feel her moving and breathing against him. As she slept, he played with her hair and kissed the skin on her shoulder. He wanted to marry this woman, wanted her to have his child and go to bed each night to the feel of her against him.
She was getting worse. All Elliot had to do was look her in the eyes and he could see that she was in pain. After talking to the staff in California, he discovered that it would cost $250,000 total for the surgery and recovery plus any additional care and medical she will need afterwards. He was never one to roll over and submit to anything or anyone and this was not going to be one of those times. He did a lot of research and found ways, legal ways, of receiving donations. He would be damned if he was going to loose one of the most important people in his life.
He asked his church to pray for her and to please help him as much as they could and he asked for donations from the NYPD. After all she had done on the force, he was sure he would get a substantial amount of money. He didn’t care if Olivia got mad at him, and mad she would be. Olivia is not one to take hand outs nor have anyone know her personal business. By telling half the NYPD and his church, he knew he was airing out her personal situation and when she was well enough, she was going to kick his ass.
Her birthday was today and he had received a gift for himself and for her. He got the money and even a little more then he thought he would. It took a month but he got it. He bought both of them a plane ticket, made reservations for a hotel and already talked to the doctor in California. They were scheduled to be in San Diego tomorrow and Elliot was gaining the courage to tell her.
He felt her moving beside him and saw her slowly opening her eyes. He smiled when he saw her yawning. “Morning beautiful. Did you sleep well?”
“mmmhmmm. Did you?”
“I always do laying next to you.”
She laughed and smacked him on the chest. “You are getting cheesy in your old age.”
“Hey, I am not the one with a birthday today Benson so be careful who you call old.”
She looked at him confused. “I didn’t know it was my birthday.”
She yawned again and stretched a little. She still had her head resting on her pillow when he got off of the bed and began to put on his pants over his boxers. As he picked up his shirt, he noticed Olivia’s eyes on him. “See something you like.”
“Always.”
He laughed and kissed her softly on the lips. “I’m going to make some coffee. Are you up for tea?”
“I’ll try. Just don’t make it too hot.”
“I’ll make it as warm as I can.”
She stayed in bed and watched him walk into the kitchen. No matter how soon she has left, she was thanking God for allowing her to spend it like this, with the man she loved. Elliot would never know how much she loved him. Every smile, every eye glance, flex of his muscles, cocky comments, raise of his eye brows, deep breaths, and even angry spells he had made her weak in the knees.
After a few minutes and coffee grounds later, he came back in the room with two coffee cups, one with coffee and one with tea, and he was also holding an envelope. She laughed thinking that he had gotten her a birthday card. Little did she know what rested inside.
She sat up and took the mug from his hands and closed her eyes. “That smells good. Thank you.”
He smiled and kissed her on the forehead. “You are welcome birthday girl.”
“What’s in the envelope?”
“This is for you. Open it and find out Benson.”
She set her mug down and took the envelope from his hands. “Am I going to be able to read it El? My eye sights kind of going…”
“Trust me Liv. You will be able to read it.”
She breathed in deep and opened the envelope. As she pulled the card out, she could feel something bulky inside. She opened the card and gasped. Two tickets to San Diego, California resided inside.
“Elliot Stabler what did you do?”
He sat his coffee mug down on the side table, sat down next to her and anticipated her anger that he was sure would be directed his way. He took her hand in his and looked into her eyes.
“I raised enough money and even a bit more for your surgery in California. I already talked to the hospital at UCSD, made hotel reservations and talked to Cragen about using as much vacation time as I can. All we have to do is get on the plane, head over there and get ready.”
“And where, pray tell, did you get the money?”
“Donations from the NYPD and from members of my church.”
She shook her head and gave him the plane tickets. “Take these back, give the money back and cancel the reservations now.”
“No.”
“Elliot! You had no right to do what you did. I told you to let it go!”
“How can you expect me to sit here and watch you die?” Olivia turned from him. She refused to look at him. She was angry and Elliot knew it but too damn bad. “Look at me and answer my question.”
“Don’t talk to me like I am one of your children Elliot.”
“Well if you are going to act like a child then I am damn sure going to treat you like one! Why are you fighting me on this? You are getting on that plane and to that hospital even if I have to tie you up and drag your pretty ass all the way to California!”
She looked at him and he noticed tears falling from her eyes. “Why can’t you just let me go?”
He pulled her closer to him and kissed her on the head. “Because I love you and I need you. God Olivia I can’t just sit here and watch you die knowing that I could have done something. I can’t believe that you would think I could. Do you know me at all?”
She laughed and pulled away from him. “I guess not. But after this, I will never be able to show my face in that precinct.”
“Olivia, you are a great cop and a great person. People donated not because they felt sorry for you but because they know you and would do anything for their fellow officer.”
She nodded and leaned back into her pillow. She was getting nauseous and he could tell. “Do you need me to help you to the bathroom?”
“No I think I’m okay.” After a short while of silence, she asked, “When do we need to be to the airport?”
He breathed in deep. “We have to be there at around 3am. The plane leaves at 5. I tried to get a later time but they were all taken.”
“Okay.”
“Okay we are going or okay I am nuts?”
“Both.”
He sighed and kissed her on the lips. “I love you Olivia Benson.”
“It’s a bit too late to kiss my ass now Elliot but I love you to.”
He laughed and wrapped his arms around her. He loved her more then she would ever know. The way she smelled, the feel of her hair against his chest, they way she breathed on his body, the feel of her lips on his, the soft feel of her skin, and even the simple way she walked turned him on. He couldn’t imagine not falling asleep to her next to him and he was going to make damn sure he doesn’t have to. So California, here we come!
I hope that was a good chapter for you. I woke up at 5am because of an epiphany! LOL! I am psycho I know. Now I am going to go back to bed for a few hours and hope that you all liked it!
I loved it!
Love is in the air yay!
Love is in the air yay!
as Tony the Tiger would say that was grrrrrrrrrrrreattttttttttttttttttt lol yea i no im lame lol keep it comin
Mary82, I only have one thing to say to this and that's:wow!!! Keep it coming!! 
amazing.....completley, totally amazing. continue...hurry i lovey! i had an idea like this but sadder i might write it later after i finish one of my stories i dont know....
Hey just wondering if you were going to finish this story. Really good.
i knnnnnow i agree with you when are you gunna finish?!? im totally hooked i reread it like 3 times!!!we all love it! add more!!!!! plz?
OMG I LOVE THIS STORY POST MORE SOON!!!!! 
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